Battle Field Of H&B

Since childhood dayz we used to talk bout the fact how there's a rat race out there in the world ..
Never did i knew that i am also gonna b a rat in the midst of all this crowd..
i thought i ws different and these things dnt effect me.. but i couldnt escape and became prey of this mad mad world trying 2 out perform every1 they knw and b some1..
what this some1 is ?? well that is no1 of us really knows.. we just know that we've got to run..
we've got to run this race till the point we can c sm1 ahead.. and because some1 will always b ahead we'll b running always.. :)
that reminds me i didnt run today :(
chalo koi naa .. i hope my FDD will b worth missing that :)

cming back 2 topic... this battlefield of H&B.. matlab heart and brain .. this battle goes on
till the point u decide what holds more importance in ur life.. what is it ?? do u know ???
well i certainly dont :).. no qualms bout that as well.. whats the point of just knowing everything in advance??

today after a chat with my friend i realized smthing.. i realized that every single one of us is going through the same emotions, same confusions, same scenarios with a tad bit difference in wht v see ahead.. as ppl divide society on basis of cast creed and color i think todays division shall be made on the basis of heart and brain followers..

v all at some point of our lives wanna follow our heart then decide that brain shall make the right decision, then think whats the point of troubling urself.. then think that whats the point of not having made a point of ur own ??
then thinking that is this what i want ? then thinking what we like ??
what makes us happy...
well that is where the key lies.. followur heart or ur brain it aint worth it if it cant give a smile on ur face at the end of it.. we all miss whatever sacrifices that we make on our way 2 b smthing or some1 .. we miss our parents, miss hanging out with friends, miss being our stupid lazy self,..
but we stil run.. :)
we all know we are running dear friends .. just look around .. take a breath have a little smile on your face and then start running again... :)

after my chat .. my player played ::
"Looking back on the things i've done.. i was trying 2 be some1".. backstreet boyz..
whole world knows rest of the lyrics :)

just 2 lines of poem i started..
"time o time y do u flyby ??
come here sit with me just have a sigh "

pata nahin will write more or not :)

excerpt 4m our conversation::
me: :) sahi mein yaar .. rat race rote the aaj hum bhi wohi ban ke reh gaye hain 12:38 PM
Dee: evn if u win d race u remain a rat.. :(
me: sad but true but no1 ever thinks that they've won 12:39 PM
Dee: khair koi na..yeh saari apni dimag ki feelings hoti hai..dil wali nai.. : yeh bhi sahi hai..
me: v follow the mirage of happiness ye dil hi hai jo rota hai dimaakh ni :)
Dee: wahi toh mai bol rai yaar.. aajkal humlog sirf dimag se feel karne lage hai..12:40 PM
nai yaar.. mujhe aisa lagne laga hai ki its in my hands.. mai jab chahun khush feel kar sakti hun..
me: yes12:41 PM
very true
Deep: evn in petty things.. sacchi.. aajkal bott hota hai mere saath aisa..
me: pata nahin ye kitna sahi hai waise but hota to aisa hi hai :)
Dee: issiliye mai bol rai ki dimmak feel karne laga hai mera toh aajkal.. dil pata nai kya kar raha.. :(
me: sab ke saath :)12:43 PM
Dee: offc ki thotful mode.. :)
me: dil ki pooch ke chalne ki himat ni hum mein isliye safe option


I wanted to copy paste the entire conversation .. but shayad zyada ho jaata :P
nywayz.. dee has also written on the same.. feel free to browse that.. she writes much better then me :)
http://luttuttut.blogspot.com/2009/04/kaash-mera-dil-soch-pata.html

Hungry Kya ??

For all those who know me et all must know that im not a foodie.. so using this dominos lingo cant b for food right :)
This is the hunger for knowledge.. hunger for all that is lying around you that is still to be tamed..
still to be made urs .. still to be conquered and understood...
Ppl say they become old when the heart stops to flirt ..
i say one gets old when one's brain stops to admire all the nuances of untouched horizons around one..
when u succumb to what all u know and decide in ur heart of hearts that there's nothing better w8ing 4 ya .. u are old..

as is beautifully said.. " change is the only constant" .. this blatant truth should be accepted with open arms and one should try to find their niche throughout..

one may say that it would mean a constant struggle throughout.. but i would say that life never promised to be a piece of cake .. did it ??? naa i dont think so..
so instead of staring at it and trying to save on calories .. keep cutting the cake in every day party of life and keep ordering fresh stock to keep ya going :)

ps.. arziyan.. delhi 6 .. awesome song :)

Thank You :)

Thank you lord for the life you have bestowed on me..
I wanted to write a post since long but time and space continum seems to catch me in its trap everytime i felt like writing .. hee hee
Contrary to what ppl feel i am like .. matlab my usual cribby self who cries for everthing around .. little do these creatures know how thankful i am for everything you have made me see in this life of mine..
almost 24 years and still counting..only u know till when though.. i sometimes feel i am living life of a tv serial .. i think i call my life a tv serial because no1 knows when they're gonna end and what lies ahead .. and u always have the option of a successor season to continue 4m a altogether different point of you .. :)
and at the same time you make me meet so many ppl who have seen and experienced so much more than i can ever imagine in my life that i have no anwer to my baffled mind.. i can only gape at situations in front of me and try to imagine how ppl got past the phases of life they've been put in...

time is the biggest singlemost powerful entity and healer that i have learnt so far ..
it makes you 4get biggest of the losses, strongest of the relations, saddest of the tormenting moments, the most horryfying of the dreadful experiences and many more..
i thank you for giving me time to heal my wounds and move on.. though these wounds might be of minisculest entities of my existence and might have given me more than taken away 4m me.. but i always know i can let it pass and i will 4get and move on :)

music is the most loving thing that i have come across in my life .. it can make one experience most varied of the emotions.. it can make u happy, sad, joyous, patriotic, loving u name it nd u've got it.. 4m the time i get up to the time i lie down , thanku lord for letting me have this tool that keeps me company and help me have my cool :).. thanku for all those dreamless sleeps that i have had in the lap of ur tunes .. thankyou indeed ..

thankyou for the sunlight which i get to see a lil off .. though i hate it at times and miss it at times i know u gave it to make me see all those around me ..thankyou for this beautiful night which brings along your most beautiful creation, my dear "moony". this night which makes me feel like the king of the world as i am the only one awake and staring non stop at it :)

thankyou for the prettiest of the colors that are around .. thanyou for the fact that i admire black the most .. :).. i know i love it way too much.. the way my mouth opens and my breath stops on seeing a pretty black car.. thankyou for that

thankyou for giving me a heart that loves ppl around it till the point its hurt :P, thankyou for not making me good enough so that i always have some place to reach in this journey called life..
thankyou for giving me countless blessings that i cannot cover in this single post.. but i gues i made my point .. :)


thankyou lord .. thanks indeed :)
and yeah .. thanks for making my first post this year a special one .. :)

Where-ever When-ever :)

Well the roller coaster of my life's sine curve tells me .....

tells me ....

..to shut up .. nice no ???

baaki iske baare mein kuch bata nahin sakti.. pvt and confidential..

just a heart felt thank 2 a friendi who said smthing evn she didnt knew

was so suave for ppl like me...

waise i think of ppl's lessons as pure gibberish and nothing else ..

but this time round i made an exception ...

it made me remember all the short term memories that i had 4gotten ...
so much so that i felt like penning it down :)
now tht im enjoying this phase of goodie2 things .. lets c wht lies ahead..


ps.. i had written this 3 4 days back.. ab not in the same mode .. so just publishing it as such..
nywayz im not competing 4 the blogger of the yr award nyhow .. :P

&&&
title is tht title track of sng thats playing non stop on my player these dayz :)

How much is too much ???

Im probably not in the proper state of mind to write this one..
but i guess i better not become so highly obsessed with this that it gets on my nerves and starts giving me goosebumps again..
so ... the most striking thing thats lingering on my mind lately is the dialoge .. " When a well educated man takes on jehaad.. nothing .. just about nothing can stop him !!! "
4 those who didnt get it .. this blog is bout mumbai blasts..
Now .. seriouly what do these guys get 4m this?? that is totally out of my scope of understanding.. okey .. u ppl were oppressed.. but so were hindus damid.. u ppl were forced 2 go out of india.. so were hindus damid.. there are numerous accounts of well establised hindu families who had to leave behind their lifetime's earning during partition...

what is this all for??
killing ppl .. destroying property .. causing havoc in general life ..
what the hell do u ppl wanna do ??
u call urselves martyrs whereas normal janta calls u terrorists .. beat that !!!
i used 2 like one quote that said .. u can make ppl literate but not educated .. after seeing the recent happenings and seeing how well educated ppl ( those of the likes of doctors and engineers ) are doing this stuff.. im forced to think even education will need categorization now ..
u're educated 4 ur living ?? or educated 2 live for killing ???

i mean what ??? seriously ?????
these ppl think they're gonna b welcomed by god with open arms...
whereas in today's date no morgue is accepting to keep ur bodies..
i saw yesterday that the muslim board has refused to accept these ppl as muslims.. stating no where in islam is it written that u kill inncocent lives ...
and damid out of the 180 or so ppl that were killed 40 were muslims...
whom are u fooling .????
i have no idea...
OHT as per my domain of knowledge ...
just got one thing to say .. GET A LIFE !!!! lest u can do is let others have one atleast !!!


on a lighter note...
heard beautiful liar today after a long time .. acha laga ...

Life Of Choices..

I never realized that life is on a way to become a MCQ....
With so many options available around .. what better can you call it?
Decidofying the better one or the best one possible is what we are asked to do..
And those of us who hate close choices in exams .. well for them the road aint tht
comfy.. we all have our presumptions for the life ahead, and like it or not
these just dnt hold true 99 times out of 100...
from deciding wht school u wanna go .. wht clg u wanna b in.. which firm u wnt as
ur paymaster.. who u wanna b with rest of ur life.. wht u wanna b 10 years down the line..
U just dnt knw nything..

I read smwhere .. perfection is wht u attain most closely when writing ur CV ..
well its so damn true.. and me being such a novice' if i knw all this i dnt evn want 2 imagine
how well the recruiters or some psychic must be knowing this...

The life full of choices comes with so much and so little at the same time..
some right some absurd.. but wht matters at the end of day wht u're left with as
an outcome of wht ya chose...

Its actually so easy to go on the path trodden by ppl u knw or are inspired by..
.............................
snap !!!

change of choice ...
ufff
dnt feel like writing ny more now ...

......

where was i .. dnt remember !!!
well i just wnted to write making choices for own is wht we al have the right to..
tht does gud or bad to us is to be seen ... so its upto u how many ppl u wanna be involved with ya when u decide al this ..
just one thing when ur choices start effecting others around .. well .. just think about it
if u cnt do much...
its been a while ...staind .. lovely song ..

being at the turn of life (thats wht it always is like..) i sometimes feel the turns are just
leading to numerous ways ahead .. gud or bad or ugly .. we have 2 w8 nd watch ..
u just wanna runaway .. atleast i do at times.. :)
cribbing 4 a day 4 maself is wht i do 4 the week long ..
then making most of it is wht i m still wrking at ..

In this insane race to the altar ... u win some u losse some..
Wht i wanna do is atleast not loose maself ..
But b4 deciding whether i still got maself i'll have 2 knw maself
2 the fullest ...

ps.. i love rihana like nything .. everything she says i mean sings seems like coming straight 4m heart ..from unfaithful and ps .. i am still not ... and umbrella .. i luv al of them .. :)

note: this post is not meant to make ny sense ... cause u cnt write wht ya feel
on public portals... still likhna bhi majboori hai .. jiska naam mahatma gandhi hai .. :P

Abe ye to apne liye nikla :)

Haan paagal insaan ..
Kal bhi bolna tha but hum gaate-2 itne busy ho gaye ki bolna
bhool gai ...
Ye gaana sun ke teri yaad aati hai ..
aa gai ullu .. jaldi se post karna padega....
ye apna gaana okies...

"Jaane kyoon .. dil jaanta hai ....
Tu hai to i'll B alright :).... "

Baaki lyrics to hum rat hi lenge jaldi se ..:)

Yaad rakhna ....

Mj

"Wake Me Up When September Ends"

When i had picked up this song to be my nxt ringtone i.e smwhere around mid aug
i didnt knew how literally its gonna fit in to the cming months...
Well al i can say that life's been a roller coaster ride since then ..
So much at times that u pray 4 sm extra time ** ***** 2 sit bck nd ponder ..

It seems like my life's coarse has decided to go by the murphy's law .. so much so that dear uncle murphy can quote everything thats been happening around me and say "I said so !" at al times :P...

Life makes u so much scoop in and around u tht i jst dnt understand y ppl have to stringent tv routines .. there's so much masala in daily life tht no K serial can beat ..
Also, i noticed tht when u grow in life .. in this journey of urs u meet so many ppl tht u have had
never imagined .. u see wht they're like.. u take sm as friends, sm as acquaintances, sm as nobody..
u give sm of them the power 2 hurt u , some to make u happy & sm nd sm an integral part of ur life.. u pick nd choose .. u are picked nd choosen .. whtever .. this vicious circle gng round nd round gets the most of my head at times...
now for cming para read u as me okey ...i cnt refer 2 myself nd write.. doesn't seem so nice u c..

so, u start observing ppl .. u start to ponder ovr such miniscule details of their behaviours as if..
as if.. well !!! frankly as if u've got nothing better to do with ur life :P
u start to question whtever action an individual takes.. u ask urself wht u'll do ..
and obviously ur way of doing a thing is just the best .. well so obviously the other person doesn't look so sane at times...
u sit nd think .. well may b i did smthing .. can i rectify tht ?? well u dnt knw ..obviously as u aint a certified consultant or smthing .. still u try nd b gud...
this is actually the gist of whtevr u observed ovr al this time...tht jst try nd b gud .. after tht u just cnt do nything .. as i had written earlier .. u pick nd choose so u're also picked nd choosen..
whole of this dramatization gng around u aint scripted man !! u ought 2 see it turns out the
way u wnt it to .. but have smthing very clear in ur mind tht u might just fall flat on ur face ...
jst b ready 4 tht ....

the duty of maintaining the spice of life isn't ur duty .. but as much as u luv it or hate it ..it will b there.... the point is hw u react whn al this falls straight on ur face ...
take it or leave it .. it aint gonna go nywhere ...
for those who are feeling the brunt of my prevarications please read sm1 else's blog ..

now again my stupid player is known 4 playing songs fitting the situation...
just have to write sm lines 4m what its saying....

""""
There's another world inside of meThat you may never seeThere're secrets in this lifeThat I can't hideSomewhere in this darknessThere's a light that I can't findMaybe it's too far away...Or maybe I'm just blind...
"""" ### 3 doors down - when im gone

So as i ws saying ....
accepting tht u're a mere puppet isn't bad provided that u knw this puppet's got brain of its own..so dear puppet, think wht u wnt 4 urself .. try 2 get tht .. if u dnt get it try ur best ..
if u dnt get tht .. well jst be grateful 4 wht have ..
trying to carve a niche 4 urself isn't tht bad... just make sure ur niche doesn't destroy others around u ..
at the end of day whtevr u do jst make sure u can smile ovr that when u're sleeping..
nothing can make u feel more special than that ..
again my stupid player is playing smthing i'll jst have 2 paste ovr here ...
"""
Affirmative may be justified take from one give to another The goal is to be unified take my hand be my brother ...................
I feel angry I feel helpless, want to change the world
I feel violent I feel alone, don't try and change my mind
.................
We may rise and fall, but in the end we meet our fate together ...
"" ######### creed - one

Lets c when i can get hold of this roller coaster :)
ovr nd out ...
Mj

Life By Anon .. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i had written this one bout a month back.. though originally bout 6 months bck.. i ve written many versions 4 this one .. b4 i lost this version i thought i would upload it.. :).. so here goes..##########################################################

Life By Anon .. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life tells you My Dear Friend,
There’s not gonna be any end

For all u’ve been longing all your life,
Its all out there all so rife

Its just you who holds on to relics,
Passing Each day by full of panics

So today my friend give urself a chance
Come out of ur probs come out of this trance

As life awaits for u if you see
Its not just about u and me

Its about the ones whom you care for
Live with, live for, are ready to die for..

Just Remember in the end life will be a maze.
So live it to the fullest with all the craze :)

Life .. As A One Liner

Many of us have imbibed in our day 2 day lives many one liners
which we use very casually..
now y am i starting off this blog like this .. well tht i dnt knw ..
but i guess i just feel happy nd sad at such quick dialogue snippets
that this one liner thingy just got hold of me...

BTW i read a nice one liner today ...
Its better to live rich then to die rich ...

Chalo getting ovr this .. the point i wanna make
is ppl need not talk 4 hour 2 make each other
happy or sad ... all thats needed is a one liner
to do the trick .. u can elate a person or destroy
his cheerfulness completely with just one gud or
bad geture u're a part of ....

Also,i saw rock on today .. the movie ws great ...
i found it supporting 1 more cliche'..
y is it so mandatorily obvious 4 the guy 2 leave a girl
so easily ?? doesn't luk gud at al..
but still im one of the ppl who lvd bachna nd sawariya both ....

moving forward ... i really wanna make blogging a daily thing 4 maself ...
socha jaye to if life hs given me enough resources to waste time
on my fav pass times then y not grab it with open arms ???
" kabhi khud pe hasa main :)) .. aur khud khud pe roy a :(( "


Baaki .. life--as a one liner tells u to let go ...
seriously !!!! let go !!!!
let go of al the one liners tht hurt ya ...
of al the one liners u didnt hear .. :(
of al the one liners u said nd hurt ppl pretty bad ...
( these ones really hang on for a long time )
of ppl speculating who nd wht u are
( they never can ,, never will knw tht ;-) )
let it go......

Life as a one liner tells ya I (life) am the utmost imp thing u got !!!
it tels ya ppl nd things u do are just immaterial in front of it ........

Life as a one liner tells ya .. Watch nd learn if u cant do nd learn !!!
It tells ya to be Grateful !!!!
grateful for al wht ya have .. wht u dnt have ..
wht u wanna have .. wht u have inside of u ..
wht u wnt 2 be... wht u are ...

Life as a one Liner tells ya .. To Live :) and let live ...
Live as u wnt to .. with whom u wnt to...
and if they dnt wanna b with u well u should let them live as they
wanna...

Life as a One Liner tells ya ..
I'll luv ya as much as u wnt me to .. as much u'll let me to ...
As much as u ve never been ...

Life as a one Liner tells ya ..
Tht i'll b there whn u'll need me...
tht im inside ur stupid head at al times...
tht i see al tht u through ..

Life as a One liner Tells ya ..
Find ur niche' in this life ...
dnt rest till u dnt find it ..
if u think its taking too much of u ,, may b u already
have found it ...


Life As A One Liner tels ya ..
You are not perfect !!!!
U never were .. never will be !!
so stop behaving as if u're a saint ...
try till u drop but aftr tht stand straight
on with wht u've got ...

Life As a One Liner tells ya..
Zindagi milegi naa dobaara ..

Ab ant mein ek aur one liner .. maara hua hai but its really nice :)

"when you really want something to happen, the whole universe conspires so that your wish comes true".

And in case it didnt .... mayb u really didnt wnted it tht bad
on the first place .... :)
mj signing off ...


y is it tht

hmmmmmmm....

Stop pondering over my title now !!! Its just that so much has happened and so much needs to be written that im getting short of a common title to cover all of them ....
i always thought .. arrey thought kya have felt a dozen or more times that i am happiest alone .. i guess i figured out y's tht so ..
when u're alone even if admist a crowd of strangers they cant hurt u .. bole to u dnt give a damn what they might b thinking .. and evn u dnt give a damn 4 what they are doing around u .. as long as they really start irritating u ...
So i figured that only ppl who are close to u or u think u are close to have the power 2 hurt u ...so thats y ppl like me like being a loner .. as i knw no1 can get me there ...
but mayb thats not how life wrks i guess.. u have 2 have ppl around u as u dnt want ur life 2 get unnoticed.. it reminds me of that line i have quoted to ma friends many times that "u need 2 have a witness 2 ur life .. and not let it go unnoticed" .. ab as long as u dnt have a life partner u share
ur daily experiences with ur friends .. and 4 ppl like me who have quite a load of busy bees as ma friends whosoever comes around gets 2 bear the brunt of my daily happenings.. haa haaa

So being loner is gud but only 4 a change.. once in a while it gives u sense
of independence and more importantly it gives u tht ...tht.. ab dono its something2 feeling which i get .. its starange but pleasurable in a weird sense :P
like the day whn i didnt had my phone 4 the whole day i felt nice as i couldn't b tracked..:P .. though i started missing my phone by the time evening approached .. not beacause of calls but because of the songs i carry in it ... bas yahi hai life !!!!
u are happiest 4 the weirdest of the things and sad 4 stupidest of the things...
it not even takes a single wrd 4m sm1 to make u sad and takes jst a stupid song 2 make ya happy again :)
thats how life is :P .. the only complicated thing in life is not the song 4m avril lavigne :P( though its gud no.. ??? ;) )

Arrey haan ,,i ws thinking of 1 job 4 maself... as music consultant 4 indian railways.. dnt laugh .. u'll know what im saying when u travel via a stupid train which plays such . such ..such(cant remember an adjective again :( .. my poor english is not as gud as my music sense u c)
khair they were enough 2 make me behosh 4 half of my journey.. and they would have killed me if i didnt had my headphones with me ...uff pathetic the bilkul...
so i thought mayb i should tell them 2 appoint me for the betterment of the society as a whole :-D
ummmmmmmmm
mausam ulti vaala gud hai aaj... upar se im writing ... upar se ahem ahem :P....
chalo u cant ask 4 more ...( u can actually )
i guess i'll write more ... starting my weeklong journey today :)
wish me luck ...
signing off....
Mj

note:
1)leona lewis is best thing which happened 2 me after avril
2) hindi songs aren't tht bad after all
3) english songs are way more senti then their hindi couterparts
and ppl who dnt knw this .. well they dnt knw wht they are missing ..

"" The wrd is PRIORITY !!!!!

chalo i'll tell u the newest wrd 2 enter my life's philosophy..
the wrd is PRIORITY.. i use it 2 describe behaviours, situations, reactions...
cm what may this wrd fits in like nything,, :P
when evr i find sm1 nt finding enough time 4 me i simply repeat this 2 myself..
though its nice 2 be on sm1's priority list but its also annoying at times whn u
find others nt having enough time for u .. :P
ab ye bahut hi sadi hui philosophy hai but jst try nd use it at sm situations nd u'll
come 2 knw how true it is @ times :)


when u keep writing blogs for a long time ur mind starts finding scoops in ur day 2
day life that can be penned down!!
now i dont knw whether u think its gud or bad .. but the thing is after a point of time
u say 2 urself.... SHUT UP !!!!!!
i mean actually there are times when ur mind just keeps saying things loud nd clear 2 u and u
literally have to shut down ur system.. alas !! the human mind doesn'nt wrk the ctrl+alt+del way :P


its been quite long since i wrote my blog but i guess writing down so many mails and talking too much doesn't actually give u the time 2 indulge in ur favourite past time.. :P
ab cant write more.. gt sm wrk .. :P
will continue later..
mj...

4m a stupid summer afternoon........

I always thought that my new blog should always come at a time
when i've really got something to write but i guess
thats not gonaa b the case in this blog...........

so where to start?? we ppl just gave the last sessionalz of our 4 yrs of engg....huh dont know whether 2 b happy or sad 4 that.. though i wont b missing the sessionalz but will sure miss how we ppl used 2 b together 4 two days trying to make sense of whatever we've been told......fighting 4 the most unimportant things taught and leaving the difficult ones 4 a later time which 99 out of 100 times never came :P

and how cn i not mention dj here who takes the most tension of us all(( though i must say we ppl have had a real bad influence on her latelybut she still manages to do stuff her way ))the most commendable thing bout her is tht she never refuses to teach nyone at ny point of time ..not many ppl have such patience level as her( especially not me !!!)

exam time is also whn all the ppl are after 1 gal ( hee heeee)ya ya i knw u knw who's her...no one can think of preparing 4 exms w/o hher or her notes 2 b precise ;) ... u really have to book her textbook long time b4 to make sure u're not caught in the last minute rush at photostat m/cs........chalo enough exm time gossip...

coming bck 2 me...i really dont know wht has made me so addicted to 2 most non commom things in this world.. books and tvi just cant sleep w/o a book in my hand ( i guess 1 can blame tht on all the exams i have given )..i must clarify these books have no relation whtsoever to my studies these can just be any novel or fiction book i can lay my hands on...i even read the illiad and the odyssey tht my bro had bought 4m a book fair (hoo hoo)


and yes how can i forget we ppl have had our farewell tht too b4 exms .........and as expected no1 got any nostalgic feelings.. well ofcourse because we've got a full month to b with each other and more because of sm obvious reasons.....chalo still my gang managed to have loads of fun admist all weird things tht were happening around us ;)the slip thing ws kind of sweet jesture by junis but i guess sm msgs 4 smppl were'nt that goody goody chalo we'll get ovr tht as well ........whole spec looked coool as always but we just missed out on a nice group pic thx to sm mischief mongers :(


chalo thts enough 4 today i more para i my bro will kill me 4 sure for my vellapanti.........;d

signing off
mj

chalte chalte......

there are bout zillion of things gng around u which cannot
be explained by all the logic u base ur life on....

(( i know there'll b 3 4 things popping up right now in ur head
take ur time pondering over them b4 reading further...))

this blog is coming at a day which made me go through all
emotions one by when as the day went past..
though it was'nt eventful at all duh... but there's smthing bout
it 4 sure.. 4 starters it made me open my blog account and start scribbing!!!!




so ,,, i was saying u cant explain things..

like i cant explain y i cant stand sm ppl around me ... and how
idiotically i make it so obvious that evn dj could see that...huh..
that was smthing....

like i cant explain y i cant say no 2 dd for nything at all in this wrld
and cant say yes 4 nything 2 vas ... he heee heeeee


like i cant explain y i just cant stand punjabi music
but when it comes from rishi rich and co. (that's juggy d and jay sean)
i simply can't resist it...

like y i enjoy house chores only when music is deafening loud 4 everyone else :P

like y im writing this stupid blog (thats really a mystery!!!)

and the list goes on...




chalo enough of crap.............

some thing from budget....

ESOPs now under FBT ( ha ha ha ha)
:: lemme start working first and earning smthing ... seems like till the time
i join we'll just have to pay whole sal 2 fm
((for those who think it of as rocket science u know where 2 find me :) ))

women sal slab increased to 1,45
:: i hope there are no hidden scissors on my pay check waiting 4 me

some DDT on MFs
:: well i really dont care 4 that right now
as no money == no investment at present :)


((the budget crap ends here ))


some gossip:::
(if u've jumped straight to this shame on u 4 being so like me and if not
kudos 2 for being such a jerk )

aamir looks total yuck in his latest ad .. burping is so LS that too on
national tv .. not happening dude !!!!

so bad the russian guy is already out 4m apprentice :(
where'll i get 2 hear such a provocative voice again ???
(sobbing ..............)
although he deserved 2 go because his creativity front was a
big zero from day1
and if cant think bout everything out of the box u're literally out urself...


,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

and lastly holi turned out unexpectedly colorful and a stretch of 2 bad hair days :(
and just mark my golden words for next holi ::::

""ITS NOT ABOUT WHAT U HAVE ....
ITS ABOUT WHOM U KNOW AND WHAT THEY HAVE :) ""



hope u got that.. if not god help u !!!!

time 2 sign off ..
mj...

hill cipher example...

ow that i've spent over a week trying to figure out
this thing , i just want 2 share it with u all


finding the decryption matrix in case of hill cipher encryption algo
will be quite a joy ride once u see the following link

BTW me nd rupli had already discovered the mod table for 26 and
finalized what we were supposed to do but this link was icing on
the cake..
only if it could have been discovered some dayz back it
would have let us avoid spending around 3hrs on msgr (over a period of
2 dayz )
and that does'nt include time spent individually ..........



so w/o much delay u can refer this link::
http://www.runcornshs.eq.edu.au/staff/balshaw/partb.htm

this will make things clearer


just remember we're finding multiplicative inverse modulo and
not simple modulus

and they are in pairs

(3 * 9) =(1 mod 26)

so (1/3)mod26 will give us 9

and (1/9)mod26 will give us 3








and for those who dont have time to waste on that link

for the ques given in asg...

inverse of ( 9 4.......is......(5 12
................5 7) ..............15 25)


here we used (1/43)mod26= (1/43mod26)mod26

=(1/17)mod26

=23




ps.. this will make sense only to those who have already
have some idea bout what im talking about



tc...

say what u want...............really??

hmmmmmmmmm..........

well there have been many situations where i just cant keep my mouth
shut and later think (actually repent.:( ) why the hell i said something like that....

there are numerous examples of that ::::

the one which just struck me today was what i had said the interviewers
of flex...here goes.......
so i was in the hall kind of thing just saying whatever first came to my mind as usual. the interview was really really long ,,u know there were times when i thought why these are people are even giving me any time to think.. ..but i guess u just never know when job calls ....
those ppl gave me a program .....
made me write the code ,,then just kept making me figure out ways to crash it,,ab batao how will anyone feel by destroying their own hand made house???
stilll ....i did that obviously i'm no bill gates( just a lame exp...)
and when my realllyyyyyyyy long interview came to an end i said to them

"thanx for bearing with me :( " ( u know i think i had really made that
kind of face there.........

now thankx to god i got the job but i had just blew all my chances with that sentence........



next::
in first sem when we had prac of the teacher i fear the most.....
(i fear him so much that i cant write his name ++ i actually change lanes
on seeing him ++ i still get shivers up and down my spine on mere mention of his name ++ even at present words are coming out pretty tough ))

so we had our first prac and that day was supposed to be first time we were supposed to get our files checked....
when the ordeal begun the first ones to feel the brunt of matter are our friends 1 2 3 ....what happened was we ppl had used pen on left side of prac files and somehow i thought he had just asked us to draw the figures with pencil not...

and when my turn came ....i just had no problem reminding him what i thought i had heard......and guess what??? i got the first scolding of my college life......god!!!!!!!!!
had i just opted to keep quiet and kept my head down things would have been so different....................
god knows what all i heard that day... he said im so and so and u are saying i dont remember what i had said?? what do u think u are??? blah blah blah blah blah.............
mummyyyyy that still scares me



next::
i have many- a- times offended ppl by saying something which i regret later
many of those things are just not worthy of mentioning
many i cant remember
and many i cant write :)


so is it that bad to have opinions???
do one really has to pay to voice their opinions??
is it bad to just say what u feel like the moment u feel like???
where should one draw the line hmmm????



well i guess no one can stop me from having opinions.....and i can assure u that i have many of those ,i have opinion on every damn topic and every damn person under the sun........that's y my resume says i'm over opinionated :-

and i wont say its bad to have opinions that's what a person is all about
having one's own mind yaar!!!

and 4 rest of the questions well figure them out on ur own!!!
i myself am :)



ab bas takliya ...............

confused..............as usual ...

finally manu sharma has been convicted and given life imprisonment......
there were pictures showing jessica's sister rejoicing with champagne
but somehow i dont fell that good...

though i was a part of ppl who felt bad when he was acquitted but now
that he has been given punishment that feeling has gone.......
i dont know why but i somehow feel sorry for that person who
took a wrong step while drunk and now will have to face rigorous
imprisonment for that deed......sure life does'nt give u second chances
sometime..............

somepeople might think that i am a moron as there's no question that
what he did was wrong...well ofcourse i know he did a dreadful deed and
surely deserves what this punishment but when i think of what might
be happening to his family now i just feel bad again but in a different way........


i happened to come across a newspiece today which stated that none of
his family members were there when his punishment was announced......
aaahhhhhh pooooorr boy will sure repent that day for rest of his life........

for someone who was acquitted and freed from all charges 7 months ago
this punishment must be a big shock......
practically the whole india was unanimously against this chap thanx 2 the
media hype this case had........


so in the end i would just say i am happy for the fact that jessica finally
got justice but i cant be rejoicing because its another human who'll be suffering now.........

ps:: my opinions are completely my own those who get offended on reading this
kindly excuse me........

on a lighter note spec - gupi +-anchi("se i dont if she's coming or not)
finally meeting at lake :)
2 exited 2 meet u ppl

am i busyyy or AM i BUSSSSSYYYY???

well now its been over one week since i gave my last sem exam and still i have'nt had the privilidge of spending one full day at my place........
dont know weather i should be happy 4 this or not ,,,(that's me alwayz confused). its gud that i have'nt had 1 day of boredome yet but i have'nt had a day 2 rest as well and also to do all the things which i have planned throughout exams.........

i guess normal ppl like me have this habit of wasting time in exams pondering over what all nice things we might be doing in our holidays but the d'day alwayz has something new in store 4 us alwayzzz....

i really cant complaint 4 being busy on the contrary this is the life i really want !!!! i know that good days pass by very fast and its only the bad ones that really drool down slowly and painfully( remember exams?? )

now somethings bout the week that was::
well first and formost i simply cannot understand y ppl like spending so much lavishly on weddings?? i personally feel that marriages should be really private affair with invitations limited to ppl the bride and groom know very well ....
but i also cannot refuse that i enjoy attending these lavish parties very much.....i'm so double minded !! huhhhh

though the waitors get on my nerves when they keep on asking u for the same thing for umpteen times and i hate drunkyards let loose with a license to drink socially i simply cannot resist the delicacies found in abundence .yuummmmmm

now something bout the ppl in there::
well girlies just dont seem to understand that its december and not march ( i hope u got my point .. duh huh).. some aunties think that their buns are the residence of all the fancy stuff available around them and all glitter just cant miss their eye makeup... i actually had the privilidge of seeing an auntie wearing a turquise saree with matching glitters all over her eye haa haa haa.. we aptly named her pea cock :))

some respite:::
well the bride is always a treat to watch.. a girl just looks superbly complicated and beautiful on her big day...the one i had pleasure of watching wore everything red and came on a palki till stage.. that was just an awesome scene

moving on::
then i must say lake looks more and more pleasurable once u have no tensions :)... the hoard of ducks simply adds on the natural beauty..
also,, shopping gives added advantage of forgetting bout results and that natural feeling of ummmmm how to explain that??? well just shop and u'll know what im talking bout!!!

and yes the world around you after exam days comes to a stand still as far as im concerned because all you read in papers is which movie's gonaa get blessed with ur viewing and whether there's ny new gossip on pg 3 ...

chalo enough tp what i plan to do this winter is a secret (he heeee heee) because i dont remember what i had planned :))
i'll try reading something bout alexander as he's been alluring me from some time now and may be some other nice book might just get lucky as well .....

time 2 sign offffffffff

my take on saddam...

the day came and went by , the man whole world eyed on with contempt has been given death sentence..

but all's not that straight forward.....people from all walks of life are feeling free to say it was unjust.though the person we are talking about is the one every normal human being loathes for his crimes against humanity but the way he has been sentenced is raising many
eyebrows.....

first and foremost the timing of this judgement makes many wonder why the hell did they had to do this so close to us elections??clearly the bush govt. wanted to proove its people they have done what they had been boasting about for so long, bringing the man to his death bed whose face they identify with international terrorism .....

then many say that this was wrong judgement by the wrong people for the wrong
case....all i got from that is they wanted saddam to be tried by an international tribunal..


he was tried by his ppl only we should'nt have any right in their matters,, but the
thing is iraq has not been under its own control since pretty long....everyone knows its actually the bush and blair's ppl running things over there...so the very fact that he got a just trial is not prooved.....


whatever people might say ,,they might celebrate for his death sentence or hold
protests against it the iraqis are still suffering under the civil riots....
i think saddam has done enough bad things to deserve such punishments but such controversial trials will potray him not as a terrorist but as a martyr and that i think should be avoided at all costs......



for a person who made his first killing at the age of 10 and did'nt thought twice
before killing his own country men only because they were against him deserves
much more then death but we should also make sure that he does'nt enters our
history books as a martyr, he should be tried and prooven to be a cold blooded
murderer ,the person he is actually.....


mj

just found out......

well this one is just some news......

for all those who know "Nicole Richie " of "the simle life"
yaar hilton ki friend..ya the same one who's coming in video of
"i call it love.." by some singer richie only..

so the thing is i was kind of curious how she's related to him
i thought he was her bro but what turned out really stunned me..
just read the next para and u'll know......


"""
Nicole Richie was adopted by Lionel and his now ex-wife, Brenda Harvey-Richie. Her biological father is Peter Michael Escovedo, who used to work in Lionel's band.
She is of Caucasian, Black Creole, and Mexican decent. Nicole graduated from Montclair College Prep School. During the time she was suppose to be in school, however, she began to use drugs. It wasn't until she was pulled over by a police officer and caught with heroin, in 2003, that she checked herself into rehab.
Nicole has released a novel titled, 'The Truth About Diamonds'. This is the first of two books in the series. Her book discusses how she "survived a virtual combat zone of youth".

"""

okey now she was adopted and whole world knows that!!!!

i was really wondering how u live with that.. we all are always so proud of
our families and the fact that we belong there..that we all are "normal" that's the
buzzword these dayz for me these dayz.....


its always the people who are emotionally imbalanced who stray away from
what's right as per me.....
its so simple to be happy sometimes (so to say...) just the fact that u're amongst ppl
who care for you and have time for you is enough to spend each passing day with a smile on ur face......



some ppl might not see any relevance of this post... but the ones who know nicole
was a drug addict and has had a tough time coming out of re-habs might just get
what im trying to say...........

too much for a sweet petite girl........


mj signing offf.........