i ME MYSELF!!

Idea minus Implementation = 0

2011-07-03T07:18:00.000-07:00

Firstly it feels strange that over 1 year has passed since i last penned down something..
i guess i've been discussing things a lot lately rather than just pouring over thought in here..

coming straight 2 the topic.. i never thought in my wildest dreams that fb will be a phenomenon that it is today. i suppose none of the initial core members ( the list is controversial as you all knw ) had thought the magnitude of this thing as well ..
i suppose most of us knw about the existence of winklevoss brothers only via social network the movie. the movie seemed quiet anti zucherberg in the sense it gave a msg tht he really had copied the idea and kinda looted the twins of their upcoming glory and huge profits ..

well well well .. i simply dont agree to that, and the fact that zuckerberg had to pay them 65mil$ or more for just having that idea ..
how many times have you seen that happening in today's world ? someone having an idea and never ever going ahead with doing something about it ? i myself knw 3 or 4 such instances.

friends sit together, discuss an idea, discuss how big it is, discuss how its not been thoght of, how it is the most relevant thing around... most of the times these idea bearers dont have the luxury of following their dreams.
some lack in money, some lack in technical capability and some just are not motivated enough to leave aside luxury of a high paying and bring their idea to life ..

so in totality .. an idea without execution is equal to a big fat ZERO...
it just means nothing at all ..
if u really think you own it and its the most awesome thing anyone has ever thought of .. why dont you just go ahead and implement it ??

you cant stop someone who had actually gone ahead and did it ..
all you can do in the end is just b happy that you really thought right and it was your brain child .. next time may be you can go ahead and do it yourself :)

zippidie zappidie zooommm

2010-06-09T13:40:00.000-07:00

Life goes up and down in one go..

Like a ball we're spun with our own inertia...

Dont knw how many years has it been since the time i started feeling tht 24 hours are not long enough..

Life gives you so much that even if you start gathering from both hands you feel like you are empty handed at the end of the day..

Proverbs like grass is greener on the other side are not fables any more, this is a reality which we knw and still live with..

from my 24*7 running life i feel blessed to have few seconds when i feel gratified for the people i have around me.. for the work ( my own and not office's wrk mind it !!!) i do that gives me high..

for all the chingu chats.. life is a bliss :)

Still there is so much to do, miles 2 go as i look ahead.. the mirage of a distant dream wakes me up and keeps me going ..

im thankful 4 the ppl around me who bring a smile back on my frowned face..

it seems like there are little angels in every shape and size roaming around .. we just have to pick the one with matching frequency :)

life's confusion goes on for the choices we have in life..

I've seen that life is all about choices and no options..

options can give u a start but they succumb to the test of times ..

so choose .. choose to live.. choose to knw wht u wnt.. where u wanna be ..

one Life to do zippidie zappidie zooommmm :)

Cheer Up Guys :)

2009-11-25T09:53:00.000-08:00

Warning:: Blog has no sir paer as ever .. only avid readers or addicted bloggers might go ahead to read the post :)

Count your blessings before cribbing for what you dont have ..

A friend wishes happy day on daily basis to the world, thinking this as his way to
make the world a happy place to live in :) .. sweet gesture naa ..

A friend takes out time to hear out what you wanna cry about .. wht else can u want :)

A friend kills time doing things dont matter .. just to live in the moment they try
to run away from whtever conspicuous hassles life poses 4 them ..
sit back nd relaax dear friend .. life will be as u want it to be ..
U want it to be a rat race ?? it will sure make u a rat ..

A friend works day in day out as they got nothing better to do..
Not done .. naa naa naaa.. u have to live .. u have to come out
4 the world to see you..

" Just rest this day with thyself my dear and hear the angel sing :)"
"the song of your life is very sweet .. u need to see it and feel it with your being"
"the heart of gold tht the angel bestowed you with .."
"the heart which sees no fault and does no harm wants just mirth "
"the heart which says just smile thats more than all world's worth ..."

Have Faith ....... Life loves 2 see u smile .. Just start counting your blessings today :)

""""""
But i am only human .. living,,,, dying,,,,, just like any fool who will
ever be..

MJ's Anatomy :) -- random blog

2009-06-09T11:19:00.000-07:00

Well if u thought im gonna describe maself in here ha ha ha.. well u r in for a shocker..
arrey i cant define myself thats too lame and outrightly impossible..
not only because im a girl but im really complex with my beliefs and all..
well i should cut the crap and come straight to point ..
there are times in this life when i listen to a quote and realize .. well these idioms arent idiot afterall...u knw they freakishly make so much sense at times tht scares the hell out of me..
for a simple example grass is always greener on the other side..

just try nd name one person in ur life whom u've met and he's absolutely content with
wht he has got.. well i know none.. i try to b content with wht i have at times but naa its not possible.. we always wanna reach the horizon .. we tend to go as far as possibe only to be disappointed that we missed d last lap ..

on similar lines how songs fit in beautifully and sometimes sadly beautifully to the situations that freaks me out .. but then i think we are similar ppl .. with similar emotions governing us.. as and when we grow in life we come across many new things we had never seen .. our experiences are the wisdom we carry ..and the ppl who write these songs are also like u nd me.. with the added gift of beautifully penning down wht they feel :)

aur hamari chirkutting ki duniya mein .. every damn person becomes a writer on their blog ( thanku thanku 4 making me 1 :P ).. and every1 chepofies status messages trying 2 portray their state of mind in one liners :).. duniya gol hai sachi ... :)

hmmm.. wht nxt .. d guy sitting nxt 2 me said u just listen 2 music and wrk al day long are u alright.. welll well well.. i am perfecty fine .. he just missed me gng out 4 ma ice cream break :)..

dnd break ke baad ....
ye jaan bhi chali jaye to gum kya hai
ki jeena to humein aa hi gaya..
ye saans tham jaye to gum kya hai
ki iske aage alam hai naya..

living present with fears of past is wht we do d best.. probably the best
way 2 live would be accepting everything with open heart and instead
of prejudices let the experiences teach you things u never knew of...
now thats a landmark statement :)

my random blog ends here..
song of the day --> what can i say by brandie ( ps dnt judge her by her name )
heard in grey's anatomy today .. now thats 4m where my blog title came u see :)

I Hate Uncle Murphy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-20T05:16:00.001-07:00

Nothing else 2 write in this post ..

i just hate uncle murphy baat khatam !!!!!!!!!!

Just 2 give us strength 4 the times ahead ..

2009-05-18T23:00:00.000-07:00

ae maalik tere bande hum
aise ho humare karam
nekee par chale, aur badee se taley,
takey huste huey nikley dum

ye andheraa ghanaa chhaa rahaa,
tera insaan ghabara rahaa
ho rahaa bekhabar, kuch na aata najar,
sukh ka sooraj chupa ja rahaa
hai teri roshni mein jo dum
to amawas ko kar de poonam

bada kamjor hain aadmi,
abhi laakhon hain is mein kamee
par tu jo khadaa, hai dayalu bada,
teri kirpa se dharti thami
diya tune humey jab janam
too hee zelegaa hum sab ke ghum

jab julmon ka ho saamnaa,
tab tu hi humey thaamnaa
voh burai karey, hum bhalai bharey,
nahi badley ki ho kaamnaa
badh uthey pyaar ka har kadam
aur mitey bair ka ye bharam

Its A Small World After All :)

2009-05-18T09:34:00.000-07:00

The events happening around on daily basis tell me how small this world has become...
everything i used 2 hear about is happening in front of my eyes..
everything i was scared of stares me straight in my eyes..
As always my life takes a turn on its own..
As always i cant plan nything :)
As always the T-shirt logic rules the world...
aaj i remembered a song i used 2 luv and sing out loud..
just thought of sharing it here 4 record..

It's a world of laughter
A world of tears
It's a world of hopes
And a world of fears
There's so much that we share
That it's time we're aware
It's a small world after all
There is just one moon
And one golden sun
And a smile means
Friendship to ev'ryone
Though the mountains divide
And the oceans are wide
It's a small world after all
It's a small world after all
It's a small world after all
It's a small world after all
It's a small, small world

Happy Family Day

2009-05-15T00:39:00.000-07:00

A very Happy family day 2 my family and friends :)

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make the most of what u've got guys ... :)

yahaan HW supervision se time laga to life supervision start

ki jaegi :)

Gear Up

2009-04-29T03:09:00.001-07:00

zzzzzzzzzzzooooooooooooooooooommmmmmmmmmmm

is what time is going like.....

got so much to do tht my cutoo post its aint helping either..

but when my mind is fraught with so much 2 b done then

i just wanna run away .. ha ha ha

gaana hai .. smtimes i just wanna run away.. jay sean i guess..

so so so...

pata ni .. it seems i've been reading so much lately that its all i think i am doing..

my poor eyes are paying the brunt of tht .. :(

sssssssshhhhhhhoooooooooo

just feel like singing out loud...

is liye i controlled my emotions nd decided this is not the right time

2 listen to music.. :P

i guess i get bored with monotonous wrk pretty soon..

sab wo hi jhol hai ...

lets get bck on fdd review ........

gearing up 4 the day ahead...............................

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No Comments Expected...

Adios Amigos :)

Random Shayari ..

2009-04-27T10:00:00.000-07:00

B4 Rups kills me.. hv 2 pen down this one....

Zindagi har lamha badalti rahi...
chaha jitna jis zheez ko...
utni hi door wo fisalti rahi....
har shaam ke sath umeeden saari..
suraj ki kirno si dhalti rahi..
us chaand ko paane ki khwahish mein
ye saansein din se raat ginti raheen
wo kaash mera chaand ho is umeed mein dhadkan chalti rahi
ye waqt ye pal ye lamha sab beet gaye
aur ye khwahish manzil takti rahi

~ When I'm Gone ~

2009-04-27T06:34:00.000-07:00

There's another world inside of me
That you may never see
There're secrets in this life
That I can't hide
Somewhere in this darkness
There's a light that I can't find
Maybe it's too far away...
Or maybe I'm just blind...

Or maybe I'm just blind...

[Chorus]
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
And love me when I'm gone
Everything I am
And everything in me
Wants to be the one
You wanted me to be
I'll never let you down
Even if I could
I'd give up everything
If only for your good
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared
You won't always be there
So love me when I'm gone

Love me when I'm gone...

When your education X-Ray
Cannot see under my skin
I won't tell you a damn thing
That I could not tell my friends
Roaming through this darkness
I'm alive but I'm alone
Part of me is fighting this
But part of me is gone

[Chorus]

Or maybe I'm just blind...

[Chorus]

Love me when I'm gone...

Love me when I'm gone
When I'm Gone
When I'm Gone
When I'm Gone

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These are lyrics of one of the most beautiful songs i've heard in my life ....

Thought of sharing it with all on hearing it today ..

How cm there r songs 4 just bout every emotion tht u might

feel is a mystery way beyond my understanding ..

Though no maven in music i find no qualms in sharing smthing so surreal with al ..

so enjoy :)

So What Did Today Taught Ya ??

2009-04-16T03:48:00.000-07:00

U knw every passing day just teaches u so much that u might not be

able to grasp whole of it and adopt it completely in ur din charya..

But u should always try to take some lessons from these numerous

teachings that are there...

There are people who inspire you .. in good or a bad way ...

Learning 4m them is the greatest asset that u can have 4 urself..

They are out there doing things practically and u can see and learn from

there mistakes and try not to follow the faulty way atleast ...

There are people who disgust me so much that i just know

i cant be in their shoes..

There are people who scare me so much that i am outright inspired

to try not to go there way and reach where they are ..

There are people who give ya new hopes.. show you new

ways of living life .. tell ya that life aint that bad after all..

tell ya to live to the fullest as there are times when there's nothing u can do

to make things work the way you want to ..

So u can very easily just cry over the situation and try to find an

escape route .. Or Or Or .. u can just mock over the situation

and come out with flying colors...

I guess this would be the most idealistic way to do things .. we all

cant be perfect ... but we can try .. we can try to have a laugh .. we can try

to live our life the way we want .. till the point we dont laugh on any one

or dont hurt anyone there's no harm in stealing some time 4 urself and

cherishing it ...

Try not to indulge urself in so much that you just cant handle.. As i always say we

cannot have our cake and eat it too.. we have to decide what we really want then stick to it ..

we cannot just assume that every1 and every situation is gonna b on our side

always .. so we should learn to be better judges for ourselves as no one

else can correct us for us ..

only v can do that :)

waise bhi we are too stubborny in love with ourselves that v wont do or listen

wht others say :P

so if u wanna b the judge of urlife teach urself 2 b the best judge possible ..

learn with each passing day,

learn with each if and may ,

learn as if tommorow never comes,

learn as we are not scums :P

learn to be a better man..

learn as if there's no fixed plan..

learn to live and live to learn..

cause others have played & its your turn..

stupid poem .. sorry :P

song of the day would be " in dinon.. " life in a metro...

heard in ferry in morn ...

tu.. khwab saja...

tu.. jee le zara :)

chalo bacha log .. bck 2 wrk :)

The Only Constant Is Change !!!

2009-04-15T00:26:00.000-07:00

though this is like a blatant truth that i keep reminding myself of..

but attimes i seem 2 4get this..

there's just nothing that we can hold on to for life ,.,

and there'll be no time which will be so damn obviously constant that

u'll feel relaxed and say 2 urself ohkey now this is good and it will stay

this way 4ever..

one should b prepared to expect the unexpected.. being ready

for what u can forsee is ohkey.. but smtimes life just has smthing

else in store 4 ya ...

so expect the unexpected and live on the each passing day

to the max of ur capacity ..

ps .. no time 4 songs today .. how bad is that :(

War Of Words.. FULL ON !!!

2009-04-13T03:54:00.000-07:00

With elections just approaching round the corner the most interesting things on Idiot Box have again become the news channels..

with the opposing parties leaving no stone upturned to deface their opponents the news channels are making most of the masala that is being provided to them .. :)

right 4m Modi's budhiya to gudiya remark on Congress .. to Advani's open challenge

for TV debate to Mr Prime Minister (as miss italy calls him :P )..

its all far 2 interesting to miss ....

one of the most interesting piece of words that i saw ws 4m a BJP spokesperson...

some ram prakash something (im bad with names u know..)

he criticized Mr PM so beautifully that i had nothing better 2 do but laugh..

he told mr rahul gandhi that if he pities the fact tht india is a poor country is

more of a failure at his party's hands as they are the ones who have ruled it for bout 90%

of the time it has been independent .. and evn in tht span it ws his immediate family

who had the power in their hands.. so its he who should be blamed.. quite smart :P

and for mr. PM he said u're talking of national security whereas the state he himself

represented in Rajya Sabha "Assam" is the most vulnerable state in the country..

now if he cant do nything bout security of his own state with his own party lead

govt in state and in centre .. what can v expect of him 4 the whole nation ??

quite simple and straight to the point no ???

nywayz.. my blog has 2 b pro-BJP because of my personal inclination towards it..

but the fact remains ... y CANT our PM accept an open debate ??

y did he said that he would have resigned if US Nuc deal didnt wrk out ??

i mean .. i dnt knw .. ws it tht imp ?? wht else can he say he did ??

i am not blaming the recession on him.. but inflataion on food articles is

smthing i dnt think he did nythig bout.. and that despite the fact his

gove claims of record agricultural production ???

what has he he given us other than more quotas ?? more vulnerable states ??

and more expensive democracy ??

I see anti-incumbency playing its role this time ...

lets C ...

Battle Field Of H&B

2009-04-09T09:13:00.000-07:00

Since childhood dayz we used to talk bout the fact how there's a rat race out there in the world ..
Never did i knew that i am also gonna b a rat in the midst of all this crowd..
i thought i ws different and these things dnt effect me.. but i couldnt escape and became prey of this mad mad world trying 2 out perform every1 they knw and b some1..
what this some1 is ?? well that is no1 of us really knows.. we just know that we've got to run..
we've got to run this race till the point we can c sm1 ahead.. and because some1 will always b ahead we'll b running always.. :)
that reminds me i didnt run today :(
chalo koi naa .. i hope my FDD will b worth missing that :)

cming back 2 topic... this battlefield of H&B.. matlab heart and brain .. this battle goes on
till the point u decide what holds more importance in ur life.. what is it ?? do u know ???
well i certainly dont :).. no qualms bout that as well.. whats the point of just knowing everything in advance??

today after a chat with my friend i realized smthing.. i realized that every single one of us is going through the same emotions, same confusions, same scenarios with a tad bit difference in wht v see ahead.. as ppl divide society on basis of cast creed and color i think todays division shall be made on the basis of heart and brain followers..

v all at some point of our lives wanna follow our heart then decide that brain shall make the right decision, then think whats the point of troubling urself.. then think that whats the point of not having made a point of ur own ??
then thinking that is this what i want ? then thinking what we like ??
what makes us happy...
well that is where the key lies.. followur heart or ur brain it aint worth it if it cant give a smile on ur face at the end of it.. we all miss whatever sacrifices that we make on our way 2 b smthing or some1 .. we miss our parents, miss hanging out with friends, miss being our stupid lazy self,..
but we stil run.. :)
we all know we are running dear friends .. just look around .. take a breath have a little smile on your face and then start running again... :)

after my chat .. my player played ::
"Looking back on the things i've done.. i was trying 2 be some1".. backstreet boyz..
whole world knows rest of the lyrics :)

just 2 lines of poem i started..
"time o time y do u flyby ??
come here sit with me just have a sigh "

pata nahin will write more or not :)

excerpt 4m our conversation::
me: :) sahi mein yaar .. rat race rote the aaj hum bhi wohi ban ke reh gaye hain 12:38 PM
Dee: evn if u win d race u remain a rat.. :(
me: sad but true but no1 ever thinks that they've won 12:39 PM
Dee: khair koi na..yeh saari apni dimag ki feelings hoti hai..dil wali nai.. : yeh bhi sahi hai..
me: v follow the mirage of happiness ye dil hi hai jo rota hai dimaakh ni :)
Dee: wahi toh mai bol rai yaar.. aajkal humlog sirf dimag se feel karne lage hai..12:40 PM
nai yaar.. mujhe aisa lagne laga hai ki its in my hands.. mai jab chahun khush feel kar sakti hun..
me: yes12:41 PM
very true
Deep: evn in petty things.. sacchi.. aajkal bott hota hai mere saath aisa..
me: pata nahin ye kitna sahi hai waise but hota to aisa hi hai :)
Dee: issiliye mai bol rai ki dimmak feel karne laga hai mera toh aajkal.. dil pata nai kya kar raha.. :(
me: sab ke saath :)12:43 PM
Dee: offc ki thotful mode.. :)
me: dil ki pooch ke chalne ki himat ni hum mein isliye safe option

I wanted to copy paste the entire conversation .. but shayad zyada ho jaata :P
nywayz.. dee has also written on the same.. feel free to browse that.. she writes much better then me :)
http://luttuttut.blogspot.com/2009/04/kaash-mera-dil-soch-pata.html

Hungry Kya ??

2009-04-01T10:41:00.000-07:00

For all those who know me et all must know that im not a foodie.. so using this dominos lingo cant b for food right :)
This is the hunger for knowledge.. hunger for all that is lying around you that is still to be tamed..
still to be made urs .. still to be conquered and understood...
Ppl say they become old when the heart stops to flirt ..
i say one gets old when one's brain stops to admire all the nuances of untouched horizons around one..
when u succumb to what all u know and decide in ur heart of hearts that there's nothing better w8ing 4 ya .. u are old..

as is beautifully said.. " change is the only constant" .. this blatant truth should be accepted with open arms and one should try to find their niche throughout..

one may say that it would mean a constant struggle throughout.. but i would say that life never promised to be a piece of cake .. did it ??? naa i dont think so..
so instead of staring at it and trying to save on calories .. keep cutting the cake in every day party of life and keep ordering fresh stock to keep ya going :)

ps.. arziyan.. delhi 6 .. awesome song :)

Thank You :)

2009-03-31T09:33:00.000-07:00

Thank you lord for the life you have bestowed on me..
I wanted to write a post since long but time and space continum seems to catch me in its trap everytime i felt like writing .. hee hee
Contrary to what ppl feel i am like .. matlab my usual cribby self who cries for everthing around .. little do these creatures know how thankful i am for everything you have made me see in this life of mine..
almost 24 years and still counting..only u know till when though.. i sometimes feel i am living life of a tv serial .. i think i call my life a tv serial because no1 knows when they're gonna end and what lies ahead .. and u always have the option of a successor season to continue 4m a altogether different point of you .. :)
and at the same time you make me meet so many ppl who have seen and experienced so much more than i can ever imagine in my life that i have no anwer to my baffled mind.. i can only gape at situations in front of me and try to imagine how ppl got past the phases of life they've been put in...

time is the biggest singlemost powerful entity and healer that i have learnt so far ..
it makes you 4get biggest of the losses, strongest of the relations, saddest of the tormenting moments, the most horryfying of the dreadful experiences and many more..
i thank you for giving me time to heal my wounds and move on.. though these wounds might be of minisculest entities of my existence and might have given me more than taken away 4m me.. but i always know i can let it pass and i will 4get and move on :)

music is the most loving thing that i have come across in my life .. it can make one experience most varied of the emotions.. it can make u happy, sad, joyous, patriotic, loving u name it nd u've got it.. 4m the time i get up to the time i lie down , thanku lord for letting me have this tool that keeps me company and help me have my cool :).. thanku for all those dreamless sleeps that i have had in the lap of ur tunes .. thankyou indeed ..

thankyou for the sunlight which i get to see a lil off .. though i hate it at times and miss it at times i know u gave it to make me see all those around me ..thankyou for this beautiful night which brings along your most beautiful creation, my dear "moony". this night which makes me feel like the king of the world as i am the only one awake and staring non stop at it :)

thankyou for the prettiest of the colors that are around .. thanyou for the fact that i admire black the most .. :).. i know i love it way too much.. the way my mouth opens and my breath stops on seeing a pretty black car.. thankyou for that

thankyou for giving me a heart that loves ppl around it till the point its hurt :P, thankyou for not making me good enough so that i always have some place to reach in this journey called life..
thankyou for giving me countless blessings that i cannot cover in this single post.. but i gues i made my point .. :)

thankyou lord .. thanks indeed :)
and yeah .. thanks for making my first post this year a special one .. :)

Where-ever When-ever :)

2008-12-24T07:33:00.000-08:00

Well the roller coaster of my life's sine curve tells me .....

tells me ....

..to shut up .. nice no ???

baaki iske baare mein kuch bata nahin sakti.. pvt and confidential..

just a heart felt thank 2 a friendi who said smthing evn she didnt knew

was so suave for ppl like me...

waise i think of ppl's lessons as pure gibberish and nothing else ..

but this time round i made an exception ...

it made me remember all the short term memories that i had 4gotten ...
so much so that i felt like penning it down :)
now tht im enjoying this phase of goodie2 things .. lets c wht lies ahead..

ps.. i had written this 3 4 days back.. ab not in the same mode .. so just publishing it as such..
nywayz im not competing 4 the blogger of the yr award nyhow .. :P

&&&
title is tht title track of sng thats playing non stop on my player these dayz :)

How much is too much ???

2008-12-01T19:34:00.000-08:00

Im probably not in the proper state of mind to write this one..
but i guess i better not become so highly obsessed with this that it gets on my nerves and starts giving me goosebumps again..
so ... the most striking thing thats lingering on my mind lately is the dialoge .. " When a well educated man takes on jehaad.. nothing .. just about nothing can stop him !!! "
4 those who didnt get it .. this blog is bout mumbai blasts..
Now .. seriouly what do these guys get 4m this?? that is totally out of my scope of understanding.. okey .. u ppl were oppressed.. but so were hindus damid.. u ppl were forced 2 go out of india.. so were hindus damid.. there are numerous accounts of well establised hindu families who had to leave behind their lifetime's earning during partition...

what is this all for??
killing ppl .. destroying property .. causing havoc in general life ..
what the hell do u ppl wanna do ??
u call urselves martyrs whereas normal janta calls u terrorists .. beat that !!!
i used 2 like one quote that said .. u can make ppl literate but not educated .. after seeing the recent happenings and seeing how well educated ppl ( those of the likes of doctors and engineers ) are doing this stuff.. im forced to think even education will need categorization now ..
u're educated 4 ur living ?? or educated 2 live for killing ???

i mean what ??? seriously ?????
these ppl think they're gonna b welcomed by god with open arms...
whereas in today's date no morgue is accepting to keep ur bodies..
i saw yesterday that the muslim board has refused to accept these ppl as muslims.. stating no where in islam is it written that u kill inncocent lives ...
and damid out of the 180 or so ppl that were killed 40 were muslims...
whom are u fooling .????
i have no idea...
OHT as per my domain of knowledge ...
just got one thing to say .. GET A LIFE !!!! lest u can do is let others have one atleast !!!

on a lighter note...
heard beautiful liar today after a long time .. acha laga ...

Life Of Choices..

2008-11-21T23:06:00.000-08:00

I never realized that life is on a way to become a MCQ....
With so many options available around .. what better can you call it?
Decidofying the better one or the best one possible is what we are asked to do..
And those of us who hate close choices in exams .. well for them the road aint tht
comfy.. we all have our presumptions for the life ahead, and like it or not
these just dnt hold true 99 times out of 100...
from deciding wht school u wanna go .. wht clg u wanna b in.. which firm u wnt as
ur paymaster.. who u wanna b with rest of ur life.. wht u wanna b 10 years down the line..
U just dnt knw nything..

I read smwhere .. perfection is wht u attain most closely when writing ur CV ..
well its so damn true.. and me being such a novice' if i knw all this i dnt evn want 2 imagine
how well the recruiters or some psychic must be knowing this...

The life full of choices comes with so much and so little at the same time..
some right some absurd.. but wht matters at the end of day wht u're left with as
an outcome of wht ya chose...

Its actually so easy to go on the path trodden by ppl u knw or are inspired by..
.............................
snap !!!

change of choice ...
ufff
dnt feel like writing ny more now ...

......

where was i .. dnt remember !!!
well i just wnted to write making choices for own is wht we al have the right to..
tht does gud or bad to us is to be seen ... so its upto u how many ppl u wanna be involved with ya when u decide al this ..
just one thing when ur choices start effecting others around .. well .. just think about it
if u cnt do much...
its been a while ...staind .. lovely song ..

being at the turn of life (thats wht it always is like..) i sometimes feel the turns are just
leading to numerous ways ahead .. gud or bad or ugly .. we have 2 w8 nd watch ..
u just wanna runaway .. atleast i do at times.. :)
cribbing 4 a day 4 maself is wht i do 4 the week long ..
then making most of it is wht i m still wrking at ..

In this insane race to the altar ... u win some u losse some..
Wht i wanna do is atleast not loose maself ..
But b4 deciding whether i still got maself i'll have 2 knw maself
2 the fullest ...

ps.. i love rihana like nything .. everything she says i mean sings seems like coming straight 4m heart ..from unfaithful and ps .. i am still not ... and umbrella .. i luv al of them .. :)

note: this post is not meant to make ny sense ... cause u cnt write wht ya feel
on public portals... still likhna bhi majboori hai .. jiska naam mahatma gandhi hai .. :P

Abe ye to apne liye nikla :)

2008-11-08T06:00:00.000-08:00

Haan paagal insaan ..
Kal bhi bolna tha but hum gaate-2 itne busy ho gaye ki bolna
bhool gai ...
Ye gaana sun ke teri yaad aati hai ..
aa gai ullu .. jaldi se post karna padega....
ye apna gaana okies...

"Jaane kyoon .. dil jaanta hai ....
Tu hai to i'll B alright :).... "

Baaki lyrics to hum rat hi lenge jaldi se ..:)

Yaad rakhna ....

Mj

"Wake Me Up When September Ends"

2008-11-08T01:29:00.000-08:00

When i had picked up this song to be my nxt ringtone i.e smwhere around mid aug
i didnt knew how literally its gonna fit in to the cming months...
Well al i can say that life's been a roller coaster ride since then ..
So much at times that u pray 4 sm extra time ** ***** 2 sit bck nd ponder ..

It seems like my life's coarse has decided to go by the murphy's law .. so much so that dear uncle murphy can quote everything thats been happening around me and say "I said so !" at al times :P...

Life makes u so much scoop in and around u tht i jst dnt understand y ppl have to stringent tv routines .. there's so much masala in daily life tht no K serial can beat ..
Also, i noticed tht when u grow in life .. in this journey of urs u meet so many ppl tht u have had
never imagined .. u see wht they're like.. u take sm as friends, sm as acquaintances, sm as nobody..
u give sm of them the power 2 hurt u , some to make u happy & sm nd sm an integral part of ur life.. u pick nd choose .. u are picked nd choosen .. whtever .. this vicious circle gng round nd round gets the most of my head at times...
now for cming para read u as me okey ...i cnt refer 2 myself nd write.. doesn't seem so nice u c..

so, u start observing ppl .. u start to ponder ovr such miniscule details of their behaviours as if..
as if.. well !!! frankly as if u've got nothing better to do with ur life :P
u start to question whtever action an individual takes.. u ask urself wht u'll do ..
and obviously ur way of doing a thing is just the best .. well so obviously the other person doesn't look so sane at times...
u sit nd think .. well may b i did smthing .. can i rectify tht ?? well u dnt knw ..obviously as u aint a certified consultant or smthing .. still u try nd b gud...
this is actually the gist of whtevr u observed ovr al this time...tht jst try nd b gud .. after tht u just cnt do nything .. as i had written earlier .. u pick nd choose so u're also picked nd choosen..
whole of this dramatization gng around u aint scripted man !! u ought 2 see it turns out the
way u wnt it to .. but have smthing very clear in ur mind tht u might just fall flat on ur face ...
jst b ready 4 tht ....

the duty of maintaining the spice of life isn't ur duty .. but as much as u luv it or hate it ..it will b there.... the point is hw u react whn al this falls straight on ur face ...
take it or leave it .. it aint gonna go nywhere ...
for those who are feeling the brunt of my prevarications please read sm1 else's blog ..

now again my stupid player is known 4 playing songs fitting the situation...
just have to write sm lines 4m what its saying....

""""
There's another world inside of meThat you may never seeThere're secrets in this lifeThat I can't hideSomewhere in this darknessThere's a light that I can't findMaybe it's too far away...Or maybe I'm just blind...
"""" ### 3 doors down - when im gone

So as i ws saying ....
accepting tht u're a mere puppet isn't bad provided that u knw this puppet's got brain of its own..so dear puppet, think wht u wnt 4 urself .. try 2 get tht .. if u dnt get it try ur best ..
if u dnt get tht .. well jst be grateful 4 wht have ..
trying to carve a niche 4 urself isn't tht bad... just make sure ur niche doesn't destroy others around u ..
at the end of day whtevr u do jst make sure u can smile ovr that when u're sleeping..
nothing can make u feel more special than that ..
again my stupid player is playing smthing i'll jst have 2 paste ovr here ...
"""
Affirmative may be justified take from one give to another The goal is to be unified take my hand be my brother ...................
I feel angry I feel helpless, want to change the world
I feel violent I feel alone, don't try and change my mind
.................
We may rise and fall, but in the end we meet our fate together ...
"" ######### creed - one

Lets c when i can get hold of this roller coaster :)
ovr nd out ...
Mj

Life By Anon .. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-09-03T13:26:00.001-07:00

i had written this one bout a month back.. though originally bout 6 months bck.. i ve written many versions 4 this one .. b4 i lost this version i thought i would upload it.. :).. so here goes..##########################################################

Life By Anon .. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life tells you My Dear Friend,
There’s not gonna be any end

For all u’ve been longing all your life,
Its all out there all so rife

Its just you who holds on to relics,
Passing Each day by full of panics

So today my friend give urself a chance
Come out of ur probs come out of this trance

As life awaits for u if you see
Its not just about u and me

Its about the ones whom you care for
Live with, live for, are ready to die for..

Just Remember in the end life will be a maze.
So live it to the fullest with all the craze :)

Life .. As A One Liner

2008-08-30T12:58:00.000-07:00

Many of us have imbibed in our day 2 day lives many one liners
which we use very casually..
now y am i starting off this blog like this .. well tht i dnt knw ..
but i guess i just feel happy nd sad at such quick dialogue snippets
that this one liner thingy just got hold of me...

BTW i read a nice one liner today ...
Its better to live rich then to die rich ...

Chalo getting ovr this .. the point i wanna make
is ppl need not talk 4 hour 2 make each other
happy or sad ... all thats needed is a one liner
to do the trick .. u can elate a person or destroy
his cheerfulness completely with just one gud or
bad geture u're a part of ....

Also,i saw rock on today .. the movie ws great ...
i found it supporting 1 more cliche'..
y is it so mandatorily obvious 4 the guy 2 leave a girl
so easily ?? doesn't luk gud at al..
but still im one of the ppl who lvd bachna nd sawariya both ....

moving forward ... i really wanna make blogging a daily thing 4 maself ...
socha jaye to if life hs given me enough resources to waste time
on my fav pass times then y not grab it with open arms ???
" kabhi khud pe hasa main :)) .. aur khud khud pe roy a :(( "

Baaki .. life--as a one liner tells u to let go ...
seriously !!!! let go !!!!
let go of al the one liners tht hurt ya ...
of al the one liners u didnt hear .. :(
of al the one liners u said nd hurt ppl pretty bad ...
( these ones really hang on for a long time )
of ppl speculating who nd wht u are
( they never can ,, never will knw tht ;-) )
let it go......

Life as a one liner tells ya I (life) am the utmost imp thing u got !!!
it tels ya ppl nd things u do are just immaterial in front of it ........

Life as a one liner tells ya .. Watch nd learn if u cant do nd learn !!!
It tells ya to be Grateful !!!!
grateful for al wht ya have .. wht u dnt have ..
wht u wanna have .. wht u have inside of u ..
wht u wnt 2 be... wht u are ...

Life as a one Liner tells ya .. To Live :) and let live ...
Live as u wnt to .. with whom u wnt to...
and if they dnt wanna b with u well u should let them live as they
wanna...

Life as a One Liner tells ya ..
I'll luv ya as much as u wnt me to .. as much u'll let me to ...
As much as u ve never been ...

Life as a one Liner tells ya ..
Tht i'll b there whn u'll need me...
tht im inside ur stupid head at al times...
tht i see al tht u through ..

Life as a One liner Tells ya ..
Find ur niche' in this life ...
dnt rest till u dnt find it ..
if u think its taking too much of u ,, may b u already
have found it ...

Life As A One Liner tels ya ..
You are not perfect !!!!
U never were .. never will be !!
so stop behaving as if u're a saint ...
try till u drop but aftr tht stand straight
on with wht u've got ...

Life As a One Liner tells ya..
Zindagi milegi naa dobaara ..

Ab ant mein ek aur one liner .. maara hua hai but its really nice :)

"when you really want something to happen, the whole universe conspires so that your wish comes true".

And in case it didnt .... mayb u really didnt wnted it tht bad
on the first place .... :)
mj signing off ...

y is it tht

hmmmmmmm....

2008-06-15T00:11:00.000-07:00

Stop pondering over my title now !!! Its just that so much has happened and so much needs to be written that im getting short of a common title to cover all of them ....
i always thought .. arrey thought kya have felt a dozen or more times that i am happiest alone .. i guess i figured out y's tht so ..
when u're alone even if admist a crowd of strangers they cant hurt u .. bole to u dnt give a damn what they might b thinking .. and evn u dnt give a damn 4 what they are doing around u .. as long as they really start irritating u ...
So i figured that only ppl who are close to u or u think u are close to have the power 2 hurt u ...so thats y ppl like me like being a loner .. as i knw no1 can get me there ...
but mayb thats not how life wrks i guess.. u have 2 have ppl around u as u dnt want ur life 2 get unnoticed.. it reminds me of that line i have quoted to ma friends many times that "u need 2 have a witness 2 ur life .. and not let it go unnoticed" .. ab as long as u dnt have a life partner u share
ur daily experiences with ur friends .. and 4 ppl like me who have quite a load of busy bees as ma friends whosoever comes around gets 2 bear the brunt of my daily happenings.. haa haaa

So being loner is gud but only 4 a change.. once in a while it gives u sense
of independence and more importantly it gives u tht ...tht.. ab dono its something2 feeling which i get .. its starange but pleasurable in a weird sense :P
like the day whn i didnt had my phone 4 the whole day i felt nice as i couldn't b tracked..:P .. though i started missing my phone by the time evening approached .. not beacause of calls but because of the songs i carry in it ... bas yahi hai life !!!!
u are happiest 4 the weirdest of the things and sad 4 stupidest of the things...
it not even takes a single wrd 4m sm1 to make u sad and takes jst a stupid song 2 make ya happy again :)
thats how life is :P .. the only complicated thing in life is not the song 4m avril lavigne :P( though its gud no.. ??? ;) )

Arrey haan ,,i ws thinking of 1 job 4 maself... as music consultant 4 indian railways.. dnt laugh .. u'll know what im saying when u travel via a stupid train which plays such . such ..such(cant remember an adjective again :( .. my poor english is not as gud as my music sense u c)
khair they were enough 2 make me behosh 4 half of my journey.. and they would have killed me if i didnt had my headphones with me ...uff pathetic the bilkul...
so i thought mayb i should tell them 2 appoint me for the betterment of the society as a whole :-D
ummmmmmmmm
mausam ulti vaala gud hai aaj... upar se im writing ... upar se ahem ahem :P....
chalo u cant ask 4 more ...( u can actually )
i guess i'll write more ... starting my weeklong journey today :)
wish me luck ...
signing off....
Mj

note:
1)leona lewis is best thing which happened 2 me after avril
2) hindi songs aren't tht bad after all
3) english songs are way more senti then their hindi couterparts
and ppl who dnt knw this .. well they dnt knw wht they are missing ..

"" The wrd is PRIORITY !!!!!

2008-01-14T21:03:00.000-08:00

chalo i'll tell u the newest wrd 2 enter my life's philosophy..
the wrd is PRIORITY.. i use it 2 describe behaviours, situations, reactions...
cm what may this wrd fits in like nything,, :P
when evr i find sm1 nt finding enough time 4 me i simply repeat this 2 myself..
though its nice 2 be on sm1's priority list but its also annoying at times whn u
find others nt having enough time for u .. :P
ab ye bahut hi sadi hui philosophy hai but jst try nd use it at sm situations nd u'll
come 2 knw how true it is @ times :)

when u keep writing blogs for a long time ur mind starts finding scoops in ur day 2
day life that can be penned down!!
now i dont knw whether u think its gud or bad .. but the thing is after a point of time
u say 2 urself.... SHUT UP !!!!!!
i mean actually there are times when ur mind just keeps saying things loud nd clear 2 u and u
literally have to shut down ur system.. alas !! the human mind doesn'nt wrk the ctrl+alt+del way :P

its been quite long since i wrote my blog but i guess writing down so many mails and talking too much doesn't actually give u the time 2 indulge in ur favourite past time.. :P
ab cant write more.. gt sm wrk .. :P
will continue later..
mj...

4m a stupid summer afternoon........

2007-04-14T04:36:00.000-07:00

I always thought that my new blog should always come at a time
when i've really got something to write but i guess
thats not gonaa b the case in this blog...........

so where to start?? we ppl just gave the last sessionalz of our 4 yrs of engg....huh dont know whether 2 b happy or sad 4 that.. though i wont b missing the sessionalz but will sure miss how we ppl used 2 b together 4 two days trying to make sense of whatever we've been told......fighting 4 the most unimportant things taught and leaving the difficult ones 4 a later time which 99 out of 100 times never came :P

and how cn i not mention dj here who takes the most tension of us all(( though i must say we ppl have had a real bad influence on her latelybut she still manages to do stuff her way ))the most commendable thing bout her is tht she never refuses to teach nyone at ny point of time ..not many ppl have such patience level as her( especially not me !!!)

exam time is also whn all the ppl are after 1 gal ( hee heeee)ya ya i knw u knw who's her...no one can think of preparing 4 exms w/o hher or her notes 2 b precise ;) ... u really have to book her textbook long time b4 to make sure u're not caught in the last minute rush at photostat m/cs........chalo enough exm time gossip...

coming bck 2 me...i really dont know wht has made me so addicted to 2 most non commom things in this world.. books and tvi just cant sleep w/o a book in my hand ( i guess 1 can blame tht on all the exams i have given )..i must clarify these books have no relation whtsoever to my studies these can just be any novel or fiction book i can lay my hands on...i even read the illiad and the odyssey tht my bro had bought 4m a book fair (hoo hoo)

and yes how can i forget we ppl have had our farewell tht too b4 exms .........and as expected no1 got any nostalgic feelings.. well ofcourse because we've got a full month to b with each other and more because of sm obvious reasons.....chalo still my gang managed to have loads of fun admist all weird things tht were happening around us ;)the slip thing ws kind of sweet jesture by junis but i guess sm msgs 4 smppl were'nt that goody goody chalo we'll get ovr tht as well ........whole spec looked coool as always but we just missed out on a nice group pic thx to sm mischief mongers :(

chalo thts enough 4 today i more para i my bro will kill me 4 sure for my vellapanti.........;d

signing off
mj

chalte chalte......

2007-03-07T10:00:00.000-08:00

there are bout zillion of things gng around u which cannot
be explained by all the logic u base ur life on....

(( i know there'll b 3 4 things popping up right now in ur head
take ur time pondering over them b4 reading further...))

this blog is coming at a day which made me go through all
emotions one by when as the day went past..
though it was'nt eventful at all duh... but there's smthing bout
it 4 sure.. 4 starters it made me open my blog account and start scribbing!!!!

so ,,, i was saying u cant explain things..

like i cant explain y i cant stand sm ppl around me ... and how
idiotically i make it so obvious that evn dj could see that...huh..
that was smthing....

like i cant explain y i cant say no 2 dd for nything at all in this wrld
and cant say yes 4 nything 2 vas ... he heee heeeee

like i cant explain y i just cant stand punjabi music
but when it comes from rishi rich and co. (that's juggy d and jay sean)
i simply can't resist it...

like y i enjoy house chores only when music is deafening loud 4 everyone else :P

like y im writing this stupid blog (thats really a mystery!!!)

and the list goes on...

chalo enough of crap.............

some thing from budget....

ESOPs now under FBT ( ha ha ha ha)
:: lemme start working first and earning smthing ... seems like till the time
i join we'll just have to pay whole sal 2 fm
((for those who think it of as rocket science u know where 2 find me :) ))

women sal slab increased to 1,45
:: i hope there are no hidden scissors on my pay check waiting 4 me

some DDT on MFs
:: well i really dont care 4 that right now
as no money == no investment at present :)

((the budget crap ends here ))

some gossip:::
(if u've jumped straight to this shame on u 4 being so like me and if not
kudos 2 for being such a jerk )

aamir looks total yuck in his latest ad .. burping is so LS that too on
national tv .. not happening dude !!!!

so bad the russian guy is already out 4m apprentice :(
where'll i get 2 hear such a provocative voice again ???
(sobbing ..............)
although he deserved 2 go because his creativity front was a
big zero from day1
and if cant think bout everything out of the box u're literally out urself...

,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

and lastly holi turned out unexpectedly colorful and a stretch of 2 bad hair days :(
and just mark my golden words for next holi ::::

""ITS NOT ABOUT WHAT U HAVE ....
ITS ABOUT WHOM U KNOW AND WHAT THEY HAVE :) ""

hope u got that.. if not god help u !!!!

time 2 sign off ..
mj...

hill cipher example...

2007-03-05T03:40:00.000-08:00

ow that i've spent over a week trying to figure out
this thing , i just want 2 share it with u all

finding the decryption matrix in case of hill cipher encryption algo
will be quite a joy ride once u see the following link

BTW me nd rupli had already discovered the mod table for 26 and
finalized what we were supposed to do but this link was icing on
the cake..
only if it could have been discovered some dayz back it
would have let us avoid spending around 3hrs on msgr (over a period of
2 dayz )
and that does'nt include time spent individually ..........

so w/o much delay u can refer this link::
http://www.runcornshs.eq.edu.au/staff/balshaw/partb.htm

this will make things clearer

just remember we're finding multiplicative inverse modulo and
not simple modulus

and they are in pairs

(3 * 9) =(1 mod 26)

so (1/3)mod26 will give us 9

and (1/9)mod26 will give us 3

and for those who dont have time to waste on that link

for the ques given in asg...

inverse of ( 9 4.......is......(5 12
................5 7) ..............15 25)

here we used (1/43)mod26= (1/43mod26)mod26

=(1/17)mod26

=23

ps.. this will make sense only to those who have already
have some idea bout what im talking about

tc...

say what u want...............really??

2006-12-21T10:07:00.000-08:00

hmmmmmmmmm..........

well there have been many situations where i just cant keep my mouth
shut and later think (actually repent.:( ) why the hell i said something like that....

there are numerous examples of that ::::

the one which just struck me today was what i had said the interviewers
of flex...here goes.......
so i was in the hall kind of thing just saying whatever first came to my mind as usual. the interview was really really long ,,u know there were times when i thought why these are people are even giving me any time to think.. ..but i guess u just never know when job calls ....
those ppl gave me a program .....
made me write the code ,,then just kept making me figure out ways to crash it,,ab batao how will anyone feel by destroying their own hand made house???
stilll ....i did that obviously i'm no bill gates( just a lame exp...)
and when my realllyyyyyyyy long interview came to an end i said to them

"thanx for bearing with me :( " ( u know i think i had really made that
kind of face there.........

now thankx to god i got the job but i had just blew all my chances with that sentence........

next::
in first sem when we had prac of the teacher i fear the most.....
(i fear him so much that i cant write his name ++ i actually change lanes
on seeing him ++ i still get shivers up and down my spine on mere mention of his name ++ even at present words are coming out pretty tough ))

so we had our first prac and that day was supposed to be first time we were supposed to get our files checked....
when the ordeal begun the first ones to feel the brunt of matter are our friends 1 2 3 ....what happened was we ppl had used pen on left side of prac files and somehow i thought he had just asked us to draw the figures with pencil not...

and when my turn came ....i just had no problem reminding him what i thought i had heard......and guess what??? i got the first scolding of my college life......god!!!!!!!!!
had i just opted to keep quiet and kept my head down things would have been so different....................
god knows what all i heard that day... he said im so and so and u are saying i dont remember what i had said?? what do u think u are??? blah blah blah blah blah.............
mummyyyyy that still scares me

next::
i have many- a- times offended ppl by saying something which i regret later
many of those things are just not worthy of mentioning
many i cant remember
and many i cant write :)

so is it that bad to have opinions???
do one really has to pay to voice their opinions??
is it bad to just say what u feel like the moment u feel like???
where should one draw the line hmmm????

well i guess no one can stop me from having opinions.....and i can assure u that i have many of those ,i have opinion on every damn topic and every damn person under the sun........that's y my resume says i'm over opinionated :-

and i wont say its bad to have opinions that's what a person is all about
having one's own mind yaar!!!

and 4 rest of the questions well figure them out on ur own!!!
i myself am :)

ab bas takliya ...............

confused..............as usual ...

2006-12-20T11:28:00.000-08:00

finally manu sharma has been convicted and given life imprisonment......
there were pictures showing jessica's sister rejoicing with champagne
but somehow i dont fell that good...

though i was a part of ppl who felt bad when he was acquitted but now
that he has been given punishment that feeling has gone.......
i dont know why but i somehow feel sorry for that person who
took a wrong step while drunk and now will have to face rigorous
imprisonment for that deed......sure life does'nt give u second chances
sometime..............

somepeople might think that i am a moron as there's no question that
what he did was wrong...well ofcourse i know he did a dreadful deed and
surely deserves what this punishment but when i think of what might
be happening to his family now i just feel bad again but in a different way........

i happened to come across a newspiece today which stated that none of
his family members were there when his punishment was announced......
aaahhhhhh pooooorr boy will sure repent that day for rest of his life........

for someone who was acquitted and freed from all charges 7 months ago
this punishment must be a big shock......
practically the whole india was unanimously against this chap thanx 2 the
media hype this case had........

so in the end i would just say i am happy for the fact that jessica finally
got justice but i cant be rejoicing because its another human who'll be suffering now.........

ps:: my opinions are completely my own those who get offended on reading this
kindly excuse me........

on a lighter note spec - gupi +-anchi("se i dont if she's coming or not)
finally meeting at lake :)
2 exited 2 meet u ppl

am i busyyy or AM i BUSSSSSYYYY???

2006-12-13T12:09:00.000-08:00

well now its been over one week since i gave my last sem exam and still i have'nt had the privilidge of spending one full day at my place........
dont know weather i should be happy 4 this or not ,,,(that's me alwayz confused). its gud that i have'nt had 1 day of boredome yet but i have'nt had a day 2 rest as well and also to do all the things which i have planned throughout exams.........

i guess normal ppl like me have this habit of wasting time in exams pondering over what all nice things we might be doing in our holidays but the d'day alwayz has something new in store 4 us alwayzzz....

i really cant complaint 4 being busy on the contrary this is the life i really want !!!! i know that good days pass by very fast and its only the bad ones that really drool down slowly and painfully( remember exams?? )

now somethings bout the week that was::
well first and formost i simply cannot understand y ppl like spending so much lavishly on weddings?? i personally feel that marriages should be really private affair with invitations limited to ppl the bride and groom know very well ....
but i also cannot refuse that i enjoy attending these lavish parties very much.....i'm so double minded !! huhhhh

though the waitors get on my nerves when they keep on asking u for the same thing for umpteen times and i hate drunkyards let loose with a license to drink socially i simply cannot resist the delicacies found in abundence .yuummmmmm

now something bout the ppl in there::
well girlies just dont seem to understand that its december and not march ( i hope u got my point .. duh huh).. some aunties think that their buns are the residence of all the fancy stuff available around them and all glitter just cant miss their eye makeup... i actually had the privilidge of seeing an auntie wearing a turquise saree with matching glitters all over her eye haa haa haa.. we aptly named her pea cock :))

some respite:::
well the bride is always a treat to watch.. a girl just looks superbly complicated and beautiful on her big day...the one i had pleasure of watching wore everything red and came on a palki till stage.. that was just an awesome scene

moving on::
then i must say lake looks more and more pleasurable once u have no tensions :)... the hoard of ducks simply adds on the natural beauty..
also,, shopping gives added advantage of forgetting bout results and that natural feeling of ummmmm how to explain that??? well just shop and u'll know what im talking bout!!!

and yes the world around you after exam days comes to a stand still as far as im concerned because all you read in papers is which movie's gonaa get blessed with ur viewing and whether there's ny new gossip on pg 3 ...

chalo enough tp what i plan to do this winter is a secret (he heeee heee) because i dont remember what i had planned :))
i'll try reading something bout alexander as he's been alluring me from some time now and may be some other nice book might just get lucky as well .....

time 2 sign offffffffff

my take on saddam...

2006-11-07T07:29:00.000-08:00

the day came and went by , the man whole world eyed on with contempt has been given death sentence..

but all's not that straight forward.....people from all walks of life are feeling free to say it was unjust.though the person we are talking about is the one every normal human being loathes for his crimes against humanity but the way he has been sentenced is raising many
eyebrows.....

first and foremost the timing of this judgement makes many wonder why the hell did they had to do this so close to us elections??clearly the bush govt. wanted to proove its people they have done what they had been boasting about for so long, bringing the man to his death bed whose face they identify with international terrorism .....

then many say that this was wrong judgement by the wrong people for the wrong
case....all i got from that is they wanted saddam to be tried by an international tribunal..

he was tried by his ppl only we should'nt have any right in their matters,, but the
thing is iraq has not been under its own control since pretty long....everyone knows its actually the bush and blair's ppl running things over there...so the very fact that he got a just trial is not prooved.....

whatever people might say ,,they might celebrate for his death sentence or hold
protests against it the iraqis are still suffering under the civil riots....
i think saddam has done enough bad things to deserve such punishments but such controversial trials will potray him not as a terrorist but as a martyr and that i think should be avoided at all costs......

for a person who made his first killing at the age of 10 and did'nt thought twice
before killing his own country men only because they were against him deserves
much more then death but we should also make sure that he does'nt enters our
history books as a martyr, he should be tried and prooven to be a cold blooded
murderer ,the person he is actually.....

mj

just found out......

2006-11-03T00:08:00.000-08:00

well this one is just some news......

for all those who know "Nicole Richie " of "the simle life"
yaar hilton ki friend..ya the same one who's coming in video of
"i call it love.." by some singer richie only..

so the thing is i was kind of curious how she's related to him
i thought he was her bro but what turned out really stunned me..
just read the next para and u'll know......

"""
Nicole Richie was adopted by Lionel and his now ex-wife, Brenda Harvey-Richie. Her biological father is Peter Michael Escovedo, who used to work in Lionel's band.
She is of Caucasian, Black Creole, and Mexican decent. Nicole graduated from Montclair College Prep School. During the time she was suppose to be in school, however, she began to use drugs. It wasn't until she was pulled over by a police officer and caught with heroin, in 2003, that she checked herself into rehab.
Nicole has released a novel titled, 'The Truth About Diamonds'. This is the first of two books in the series. Her book discusses how she "survived a virtual combat zone of youth".

"""

okey now she was adopted and whole world knows that!!!!

i was really wondering how u live with that.. we all are always so proud of
our families and the fact that we belong there..that we all are "normal" that's the
buzzword these dayz for me these dayz.....

its always the people who are emotionally imbalanced who stray away from
what's right as per me.....
its so simple to be happy sometimes (so to say...) just the fact that u're amongst ppl
who care for you and have time for you is enough to spend each passing day with a smile on ur face......

some ppl might not see any relevance of this post... but the ones who know nicole
was a drug addict and has had a tough time coming out of re-habs might just get
what im trying to say...........

too much for a sweet petite girl........

mj signing offf.........

3 cheers to bindra uncle....

2006-10-14T08:03:00.000-07:00

welllll... he's not my uncle actually but he seemed so sweet today that i could'nt help it.

i'm talking about Mr.I.S.Bindra(president of the Punjab Cricket Association )
today i heard a press confrence of his in support ourformer captain moh. azharuddin whom the bcci has invited for a function and icc thinks that bcci should'nt have invited someone who's having a life ban to play cricket because of match fixing allegations....

well whether azhar deserved to be invited or not is not the question here . the thing is that india was the only nation who took some action against ppl whose name came out in match fixing scandal.whereas people like warne and gibbs were left after issuing warnings and are still playing with their head high...

the question is why does the ICC always targets countries like india, pakistan and sri-lanka???most of the time they are numb over all controversies and when they feel like acting its always the brown skinned who face the brunt of things....

why this disparity???
this is what mr. bindra today spoke in public....he put forward the proposal to lift all punishments from our cricketers...its good to see that atleast someone has the guts to speak up what they feel in the world cricket..no matter how much i adorn pakistani players when they're playing against india but when inzy was to face trial for what he did in oval test i felt sorry for the chap.. every one knew how hair always had ppl from india pak and lanka under scrutiny stilll....

who can forget that its alwayz our bhajji ,akhtar or murli for that matter who are tested again and again for their actions but likes of lee and mc'grath are alwayz right..and
who can forget how warne alwayz comes out of any controversy WHATSOEVER :)

bindra uncle showed the true punjabi spirit today ...
kudos to him 4 that .........................................................

++ today i saw 2 policiyas in duplex i was pretty scared don't know why?? maybe because they were standing in mid of nowhere and looking at a peace of paper... chalo anyhow i changed my way and guess WHAT???when i reach home they are inside my place...don't believe it ???well nor did i but they had come 4 pp verificationphew......main bhi naa.. i'm 2 much ;)

++i realized its really awkward to come in front of policiyas in skirt so beware of that gals!!!

++sessionals are coming so BOL spec...:)

arrey i remember something else now....yaar that economist banda who won nobel peace price that bangladeshi lemme check his name...its muhammaed yunusya he looks like apna mlg nahin???he's even doing the same sort of thing microcrediting he calls itas against microfinancing as we knew it in nss....we obviously know who copied whom (hee hee...)so sir in line 2 win peace prize??(zyada ho gaya i know!!!)

bas last thing.....
zindagi rocks was gud but very heavy....i swear i'm not seeing such heavy stuff again.........and god knows when i'll finish forest gump??? (i guess i cant read it cause it got serious ,,so typical of meeeeee.)

finally
ta taaaa
mj...

da vinci code

2006-09-09T12:14:00.000-07:00

well this one is gonna b really short!!!

i read this book around a month back and i've been dying to write
my reviews......

well for start i would say not bad but not great!!!!!!!
actually after all the hooplah bout the movie i thought i was in for a real treat.
the book started off pretty well!!!
infact the best starting i ever read in a book
it makes u get into it from the start itself
the mystery is extraordinarily crafted!!!!!
the clues are so thought provoking.

but..........
the end leaves so much unanswered....
what was in there????
hello who was supposed to tell us bout those documents????
who was supposed to insure us that something was indeed hidden there?????

given the book had around 3-4 more chapters the story indeed could have been
called complete..

so i guess the author just had to leave that code 4 us to crack it down!!!!!!!!!!

rating *** (out of 5)

thank u

2006-09-09T12:08:00.000-07:00

""the only thing which is permanent in this world is change itself !!!!!!!! ""

to start off my blog like that has no reason...i just felt that so wrote that!

i've been thinking over something 4 quite some time,its just by chance that everything around us happens.there are many things which happen just by chancewhich have no reason at all.

b4 going into any intricacies i would quote a simple example.. how come u're the way u r and im the way i am??how come im born here in this family and someone of my age is living a life of a servent??i know the comparison is a stupid one and makes no sense at all.. but when i saw my self and a maid of my age sitting together in car rear seat it just occured 2 me that..i could have been on the other side !!!!!!!!!

that is one scary thought......from that day im just so much thankful 2 everything that isaround me....

no matter how we all might crib for everything around usthe truth us is we are having a blessed life,in which the only things that worriy us most these days are exams.

so i just want to give a round of thank yousssss
thank u 2 everyone whom i ever come across i've learntsomething for everyone
thank u for blessing me with a healthy family
thank u for letting me have the best p***** in this world
thank u
4 the awesome mausam4 lovely muzic
thank u god for everything that i have had in my life and thank u for being there even when i forget u :)

after all this i would like 2 say that days are filled with mixed emotions and we live life in fear of changes that happen around us. we should learn to accept these as a way of life and welcome them with open arms...
im not perfect but i have'nt quitted trying yet u 2 dont!!!!!!!!

(let peace prevail........)

2 months of freedom come 2 an end !!!

2006-08-01T02:20:00.000-07:00

seems like yesterday when i was cribbing y the hell do we have holidayz
and when will this long timespan end!!!

but as the grass is alwayz greener on the other side ... so is the case this time!!
its practically been just one day in college that too with no regular studies and i've
already started missing holidayz!

so this post goes 2 bid farewell to amazing 2 months i had!!!!!!!!

i cant make my mind on what im gonna miss the most???
is it gonna be long sleepy afternoons?
the ones in which i pretended i was reading something and dozed
off listening 2 some nostalgic numbers. those sleepy hours which
ended only when my stupid phone rang( although i love it..) or when
my door bell sang the age old song(ting tong.. open the door.. ting tong..)
or.....

rare but long and exhausting badminton sesions with my bro??
the ones for which i had 2 bribe him making him remember every damn favour
i did for him. the ones in which we fought hard till one had no energy left...
the one in which we screamed so hard that my mother said one would murder
the other one 4 sure..:)) the one which now ceases to exist because we have either
spoilt all shuttles we had or they are lying on neighbour's balconies......

meaningless but damn entertaining msgr chats with noops??
the ones in which we chatted 4 uncoutable hours.the long hours which ended when
one got totally talli with neend.the ones in which we cursed every damn person on
this planet except each other..(hee hee :) )..the ones which prooved girlz can talk
whatever whenever whereever TIME or TOPIC no bar....

or..

long never ending walks which ended only because of darkening skies??
those long walks in which we chatted like crazy... in midst of dogs of all kinds ( :) )..
with a very narraow escape once (remember getting into a marriaga pty dd?? )
these meant so much 2 me.... the ones which made us realize how imp is to be normal
in this abnormal world...

reading whatever i felt like whenever i felt like??
this was also a fun part..i miss reading editorials like nything. not that someone
has stopped me from doing that. but i cant relish them as much as i did earlier..
and how can i forget how i enjoyed fountain head.. i really miss my vella time...

welll.....
mylist will never end!!!

but one thing is for sure, the holidayz had a grand end with trip 2 simla........
something we are just not forgetting pretty sooon!!

that i'll cover some other time!!

this one was 4 my holidayz!!

3 cheerz 2 me!!!
mj
:)

nothing and everything!!!

2006-07-20T12:50:00.000-07:00

now that the placement feelinghas finally sunk in,its time to look at the world around again.
its really gloomy scene i might say!!well i'm not talking about anythingon personal level( na...)
its actually what's happening in our country that bothers me..

first of all the news channels havesuddenly woke up again to the sabrimalatemple incident..what a shame 2 our global image??imagine a country called as a hub 4 IT boom,country of modernists ,country having foreign investors lined up 4 trading..imagine such idiotic acts of discrimination against women of certain age group..i have no comments but 2 say its patheticthat such acts are still prevalent in society!!!

then when one starts looking around its not hindu religion who's been actinglike this! there are arguements like whyhave we never seen a female pope or female padri!!!(i can go on nd on nd on ..)

then one comes across plight of farmersin maharashtra. the very fact that thesuicides have continued even after PM's latest announcement of financial aid sayz a lot!!!its again really dispiriting 2 see farmers giving away their lives succumbing to financial pressures :(

then comes then news of indians struck in lebanon and fighting 2 make their way back 2 their home nation!!!

all these plights make our own appeargrotesque !!! how can we be cribbbing over our petty problems when there's so much to worry about!

all we are supposed 2 do is study during examsand manage good percentage!get a job somehow and start working@@while there are others fighting hard 4 basic necessaties@@how can we be complaining about right to informationwhen our right to pray has'nt even been granted!

there are girlies making statements like"one can never b too rich or too thin" well how can u be concerned with how u lookwhen ppl are dying in front of our eyes and u're nothing 4 that!
i have no idea what i want 2 convey from thispost!i just wanted a vent 4 my feelings and this one's the best available!

i am suggesting no reforms ! well i don't know any@all i wanted 2 do was tickle those jammed brainsto see what's happening all around!!it tells me i've been blessed with such great environment to live in with everything i'll ever need around me@@i don't want to spoil things by making any wrong decisions in life!

and if someone wants 2 take something gud from this post read on....
i've seen ppl fighting over such non existentissues that make u feel like slapping both andshaking them hard till they realize they are just wasting this beautiful life over absurd isues!!!
as far as i can recall most preposterous deeds areoutomes of clashing egos ! if one could just learn 2 cut out their attitude life would be so much moreendearing :)

so just chill!

CSC unleashed !!!

2006-07-14T01:04:00.000-07:00

there were 5 rounds
-aptitude
-technical written
-extempore
-technical interview
-hr interview

i'm writing detail of interviews

TECHNICAL INTERVIEW !!!
my technical interview lasted about 10 minutes and ppl had there's lasting till half an hour so i was not sure wheather it was gud or not . but now that i have checked it seems i gave most correct answers :)
I WAS ASKED THIS

1.
INT I=5;INT J=7;INT K;K=++I+++J; COUT<
I SAID ERRORBECAUSE lvalue is requiredas ++i+++j will be reduuced to
++i++ +j
++i++will give ++5++which becomes 6++now it should have been 6=6+1but this is not true as 6!=7
we require a variable on left hand side hence lvalue required!!

then he changed the question to what will be output now
i+++j
ans is 12

2. what are deadlocks ?i gave a definition of system halt and 4 deadlock conditions!!!

3.write functions on call by value and call by reference

4. 3NF ??

2nf + there should be no transitive dependency
5.what is RDBMS ?

6.heap sort
i just said the upper key has higher value then lower key valuesin a heaprest i had no idea but i guess i defined heaps right so he
did'nt bother

7. binary tree ??

ABOUT PROJECT:::i had made an online testing software "analytica" using ASP.NET and ms access
he asked me to explain what i had done in that that was easyyyyy
may b there were more that's all i remember!

HR--educational background--family background--did u have any breaks in ur studies??--again he asked about analytica?( nd this was supposed 2 b HR) -he asked whether i did as part of some project or extra curricular activity--do u have any problem with our bond?? ofcourse not!!!

some more questions i heard.....something called aloha, all normal forms, mux-demux, arp, some crap about java,scope resolution opearator, abstract class, virtual class, os

will write more if i remember!!!

and yes i was selected :) !!!

Fountain Head Revisited !!!

2006-07-07T12:55:00.000-07:00

before i forget all that i had read this summer i thoughtits better 2 make it permanent on the net!

so i read this book called "THE FOUNTAIN HEAD" (although the reason why itwas called so is not clear to anyone i know! i'll give my interpretation later).
the protagonist here is a banda called howard roark (an architect whonever finished college ) who's portrayed as an individual who's really rare to find these dayz!

the story unfolds different situations of roark's life nd gives the reader his perspective of looking at things and how other characters look at things.

roark is presented as a person who does'nt give a damn about what peoplethink about him! he believed that his college had nothing gud to offerhim. he believed that architecture should not be about creating fancy buildings but cheap affordable accomodations.

but these were not the qualities which made him different the thing which struck me most that it did'nt mattered to him what others felt of his work.he has been shown completely stoic to what he believes in and changed for nobody!!!just nobody!!!

well this kind of ideology might look as a daring one BUT..Is It Really Feasible???
can any one of us today just abandon the society we're living in and start living as we feel is right!can any one in today's world neglect the importance of group activities and find oneself potent enough 2 deal with anything?????

Audacity may appear as a gud quality of an artist, as he dares to try out new things but where do we draw the line??howard has been shown as a person who defies all norms that exist of present day society!

as we'll be part of the corporate world in near future we are supposedto dwell in groups and work as teams so i have some serious doubts whether there are any howard roark's in today's times??

well anywayz, he comes out as hero in the end and the book is gudreflection of how a person is exploited at hands of some smarter ppl!!!

advice:: ppl who wish 2 read the book must be ready for a boring start but as the story progresses u'll b totally into it!!!!!!!

rating:: ***(out of 5)

and about the title::well i think it was "fountain head" because howard roark was an abundantsource of knowledge!!( compare with fountain having abundant source of water).

don't expect any head with a fountain as i did!! :)

Muzic Unlimited!

2006-07-06T00:56:00.000-07:00

sometimes i feel what would i do if there was no muzic in thisworld???
that's a really scarry thought....

with holidayz on verge of completion and placement fever runninghigh the one thing which made me feel gud all through this scorchingheat was gud muzic.though i know i can listen anything to anything under the sun(that just suits so perfectly !!) but this time round i fell for some really nice mesmerizing no's which i thought i must write down ,so that in case if i see this blog after sometime i can some tips 2 feel good!

the list goes like this..

->celine dion-beauty nd the beast
well this is what's written as song title but it has no beauty or beastin its lyrics.its a bewitching song nd these dayz i can listen 2 it all day long.

->james blunt-u're beautiful
although this banda is pretty freaky but he sings really well.this is one of those rare songs u'll like on the first go..(exception being there if u're deaf yr 2 gud muzic)

->ankahee- aa pass aa
the first time listened 2 it i was like wow..but alas i did'nt had this song although i had the whole movie'ssongs.that's when net came in handy nd i had it in no time nd enjoyed it thereafter..

->ricky martin- private emotion
though its hard 2 believe that the livin'la vida loca boy can givea soft song but this one though old is one of my all time favourites..

->enrique- hero
no list can be complete without enrique and his latino accent...though his videos can not be watched with ease(nd i really mean that!)but his songs can b listened 2 all day long!!!!!!!!!

some good albums..well there are ones like of raghav and jay sean which have all the nice songs. ppl like latest indian idol(don't know his name..) orthe zee's assamese invention stand no where near them.their muzic has touch of hip hop and nice tunes all in all a gud package!and there are many more but i'll need more space 4 that nd i've gotbetter works 2 b done so.. the list ends

its surprising infact shocking to see ppl existing without having a sweet tooth 4 nice muzic. well i've got a complete set of them!so ppl chill the hot weather with this sm cool muzic as i do!!!!
ciao

The Story Of Perceptions!

2006-06-12T21:59:00.000-07:00

So i've finally decided! actually have made my self believe that i have no sense whatsoever of judging people!

the reason !
well once again one of my judgements have gone completely wrong!
the person i had declared to be a hitler, had no grudges to announce
publically that he's totally pakau and whom i can't stand
turned out to be a pretty cool human being!
(b4 this leads 2 any speculations and controversies its a teacher
i'm talking bout !!)
that banda just gave me one of the most rocking morning sessions!
i really had a good time after a long time.

and this is not the first time!
around 2 yrs back i was totally shocked to hear a banda clear CAT!
though i thought him 2 be gud for nothing except cricket
and pranks he played on others!
(although i have no doubts whatsoever i owe a lot to him
4 inspiring me in a strange kind of way! the very idea of
great campus life was alluring enough!)

and...
remember some aunties uncles u never feel like talking 2!
and after some interaction they become kind of buddies.
i've got one aunt whom i really loathed simply cause she
did'nt followed any norms i thought existed, but when i started
talking to her it seems she's handling situations superbly!
a divorcee and a single mom she's a perfect example
of a lady holding her head high in this male dominated
world!

and my list can go on and on and on!

why can't we judge people is the question?
do people change or are we incompetent to make
judgements?
well i don't know...

i've just
given up the theory that "first impressions are last ones!"

sometimes i feel why can't we just see people and makeout
what they're like. but things don't work like that!
the intricacies of a human mind cannot be perceived
by human eyes!
and if u are a girl the matters are even worse!
let go of the fact that anyone else might get u right u might
urself might not be able to know urself !!!

the best thing is to have friends whom u can understand at
times and who in return understand u back !
maybe not in totality but a even small percentage is a welcome
phenomenon!

its really nice to be urself in front of such people!
u can say whatever whenever no questions asked!!!

so finally i will just say that don't be judgemental of
people whom u really don't know, take ur time .
sometimes its not that bad 'to not have an opinion
on something in life!
let every individual explore his /her own space
while u dwell in urs with the ones u care about!

mj..

Getting Confused!

2006-06-09T12:23:00.000-07:00

people don't think that i'm
obsessed by word "getting" its just going
well with the title!

This is the time of utmost importance (once again!)
for our careers. Now at the verge of passing out our college
we are once again faced with 2 way street!!!

ONE
->one takes us to a job! which won't b a problem(if god forbids!!!)
this road has really large visibility range!
as u can see urself working 4 atleast 2 yrs.after that god knows.

->this road provides immediate satisfaction 2 many as one can
finally be econmically independent!

->but what after 2 yrs. do u want 2 b struck tothe same job or
????

TWO
->this is the road to knowledge.
its really foggy visibility range really low!

->this road takes u to more yrs of studying something with
which all are pretty much pissed off by now!

->but if u make a mark in here u will have more
financial security.(for dumboos this means big packages yaar!)

BUT BUT BUT
which road do i choose?
->well don't expect me to answer that 4 u! it has 2 be an
individual's decision.
no one decide 4 u yaar!

can i leave one completely?
->well here i can help! people i don't think u should ever
close any open door with ur own hands(don't take it literally ps)

given an oppurtunity u should never show it a backface,
never kill ur fate with ur own hands!!

and after all this crap!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

there's onething i fear the most in my life its TIME its the
only thing not in my hand hence i don't know much bout it!
though its said 2 b the cure of all bad things its always had
something unexpected 4 me throughout my lifetime!!

whenever i'm sure of smthing in life the new time brings with it
smthing completely unexpeced.
i'm not complaining i'm having a really blessed life(touch wood!),
but i really don't know what lies ahead its really foggy!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Getting Started!!

2006-06-02T13:25:00.000-07:00

hey people!
im totally new 2 the world of blogging!
Though i was pretty happy for the fact that i knew what it was (while reading about it in sabeer bhatia's interview) i had no idea it had become so popular already!
that's the problem with me i think things are too complex and never give it a shot until i see someone else trying them out.( i know spectrum u always bug me for this!!)

chalo better late than never!!!

im engg student who loves everything about her life(touch wood!).
we are a group of seven friends who do weirdest things,
share secrets and laugh a lot (thanks to ns & party).
i'm starting blogging to have some thing fun to do in holidayz
lets see till where it goes!!!

mj..

i ME MYSELF!!

Idea minus Implementation = 0

zippidie zappidie zooommm

Cheer Up Guys :)

MJ's Anatomy :) -- random blog

I Hate Uncle Murphy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just 2 give us strength 4 the times ahead ..

Its A Small World After All :)

Happy Family Day

Gear Up

Random Shayari ..

~~~ When I'm Gone ~~~

So What Did Today Taught Ya ??

The Only Constant Is Change !!!

War Of Words.. FULL ON !!!

Battle Field Of H&B

Hungry Kya ??

Thank You :)

Where-ever When-ever :)

How much is too much ???

Life Of Choices..

Abe ye to apne liye nikla :)

"Wake Me Up When September Ends"

Life By Anon .. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life .. As A One Liner

hmmmmmmm....

"" The wrd is PRIORITY !!!!!

4m a stupid summer afternoon........

chalte chalte......

hill cipher example...

say what u want...............really??

confused..............as usual ...

am i busyyy or AM i BUSSSSSYYYY???

my take on saddam...

just found out......

3 cheers to bindra uncle....

da vinci code

thank u

2 months of freedom come 2 an end !!!

nothing and everything!!!

CSC unleashed !!!

Fountain Head Revisited !!!

Muzic Unlimited!

The Story Of Perceptions!

Getting Confused!

Getting Started!!

~ When I'm Gone ~